my beginning

2008-04-26T17:35:00.001+08:00

2008-04-23T20:30:00.010+08:00

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

Currently looking for a new blogskin!
Will change soon when I'm free.

Maybe I'm switching to Livejournal, or probably Xanga. Hmm.. Which is better?
Both both are equally difficult to use eh.

Whatever.
Bye.

2008-04-22T20:57:00.005+08:00

You don't know how you have been on my mind each passing moment.

I don't want to see that you have the whole world weighing on you.
I don't want to know how much I have hurt you.

I told you I couldn't stand the sound of my mp3 playing into my ears..
But what I couldn't tell you was how much those songs reminded me of you.
I couldn't stand how I am now that one those sad songs are playing for.

But for what's done is done, one thing will never change.

And that is I love you still..

2008-04-21T22:06:00.003+08:00

LeAnn Rimes - Probably wouldn't be this way

Got a date a week from Friday with the preacher's son
Everybody says he's crazy
I'll have to see

I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves

I'm probably going on and on
It seems I'm doing more of that these days

I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way

Mama says that I just shouldn't speak to you
Susan says that I should just move on

You oughta see the way these people look at me
When they see me 'round here talking to this stone

Everybody thinks I've lost my mind
But I just take it day by day

I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes I feel an angel's touch
Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way

I Probably wouldn't be this way

Got A Date a week from Friday with a preacher's son
Everybody says I'm crazy
Guess I'll have to see..

2008-04-21T20:38:00.003+08:00

Has been a long, long day.. Frankly I'm quite tired now, but guess I'd end off the day with this post.

Slept rather late yesterday, but I still managed to wake up at 5am. Cool huh, just when my alarm went off, I jumped out of the bed, like I couldn't wait to get out of the dream I was just sleeping through.

Felt terribly sucky in the morning. Qianyi walked pass with a few words of concern, thankyou. (: You made my day, haha..

Oh, I passed social studies, 7/13. Hah, considering I didn't really touch the book, I was rather surprised when he called out my name as those half who did pass.

Bio remedial was just a waste of time. Nevertheless, Phua and Haziq managed to bring some laughter. Lols.

Went to the bandroom for the POP meeting till 5, decided that bus was too much of energy, so I cabbed back instead.

I'm super tired. Just back from swimming at yx's. Swam like a few laps only, then we chat throughout.
Was nice. The pool brought back fond memories of the past..

Whole day went pass just like that. With a little of thoughts here and there. I managed to pull through. It didn't felt like it was a day. More of a year.. Oh wells. Smile.

Alright, I'll end here.
Take care, bye.

2008-04-19T12:00:00.008+08:00

LeAnn Rimes - Some say love

Some say love
is a river,
That drowns the tender ring.
Some say love
is a razor,
That leads your soul to bleed.
Some say love
is a hunger,
An endless aching need.
I say love
is a flower,
And you its only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to be.
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live.

And the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you feel that road is onl
For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember
In the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow,
Lies a seed,
That with the Sun's love,
In the Spring
becomes a Rose.

2008-04-17T18:29:00.002+08:00

Young and talented.
It sure takes a whole lot of maturity to sing that well. Must watch! (:

Anyway, I've been pretty hardworking these few days cos I've been studying. *pats back*

Gonna study later too! Yeah yeah.

Going town tmr! Yess, shopping, like finally. :D
Watching Definitely Maybe! Tell ya all if it's nice soon. (:

WKC's debut concert on Sat. Church on sun.
And again, it's the start of a whole new week.... With more tests and more tests....

Okay I'm gonna bathe now.

Byebye (:

2008-04-16T19:42:00.002+08:00

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean possession
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn...

- Amanda Chng

And I learnt,

That our doubts are disloyal
and that makes us lose what we could achieve,
if it weren't for the fear of trying.

My fear would be myself, of what I'm willing to do.

Be brave and know that you are not the only one who has walked this path.
Your path is your own and in time you will find your way.

I'm brave!!

2008-04-13T13:19:00.003+08:00

I forgot to blog about this mad man I saw on Friday.
Apparently, Devin, Joey and I were just making our way to the bus stop, like going home. Everything was normal.

Normal, until this mad man came along. He was walking back and forth, pacing about at the bus stop. We sat down, and he kept pacing about infront of us.

Then he suddenly mumbled something to himself, and turn away.
Just when we thought he'll go away, he turned around and threw us a pervertic smile!
Bloody nutcase!

He's so short and fat, and dirty. And had so many things mumbling under his breath. Very annoying!

And that was all that he did lor! Pace infront of us, stare at us. There were moments when he came reallyyy close. But when he did, all he'll do is stare at our shoes, and nod his head in content. -.-"

Then like once every few minute, he stares at our name tag, and mumbles the name under his fucking breath, again.
A few moments he seemed like he was staring at our legs, in a very very annoyingly disgusting way.

I have to keep asking Devin to shut his mouth lar! Least the mad guy thinks that we're talking about him, and comes over to find business.

Devin's mouth just couldn't stop lor! He kept asking,"Why?? Why cannot talk?"
Tsk tsk.

Until he managed to keep quiet, we just sat there, in fear that the maddy will come any closer.

So I smsed Baby, and he was just around that area.
But aiyah, by the time he came, the maddy had just in time boarded a double decked 133.
Maddy actually waved at us before he went up you know! What the fuck!

Sigh! So much for mad experiences..

Anyway,
we gave our gift to Mr Tan the other day in the bandroom.
I tried so hard to find the picture that we took, but seems like no one posted it up!
So here's 3 which after so long, I managed to find and kope from xueqi's blog.

A random photo of Me and Zhen Yee, taken on plane back to Singapore. She was my seating partner, and very gossipy indeed! Haha, we had a gossip session which I learnt alot from. Hah!

Taken from Qianyi's blog. (:

Anyway, baby and I went to watch Run papa yesterday, and it wasn't that nice.
Not as much as I thought it would be. And the story line didn't really flow..

Okay, end here now.
Band tomorrow! Very last day!
But it's like packing up. Hopefully the teachers are kinder to let us off early for remedial.

Byebye. (:

2008-04-12T13:33:00.003+08:00

Hello hello.
Missed a whole day of school again yesterday.

AMKSSband had the priviledge to be the demo band for some master class held by Doc. William. It was held in CCAB for band directors I suppose.

It was okay.
We were all waiting for the bus, and started playing some really really old songs from years ago. Sesame street, can't take my eyes of you etc. I really love love them. (:

We spotted Mr Tan across the street and screamed to him that we love him. Haha. He then later smsed me saying,"Tell them I love them too.."

Sigh, 4 years has gone by so so quickly, I'll miss the good old days alot..

We headed back to the bandroom, for some taupok sessions!
Hazmei and Devin were the unfortunate targets.. Lols.

Weilin bought me this cup! Thanks ah! Haha.

Okay I'm off to youtube now. Recently been addicted to watching videos there. (:

Bye!

2008-04-10T23:13:00.002+08:00

Times Square!

2008-04-10T21:12:00.011+08:00

Problems aside! They suck, whoever they are.
I woke up feeling like as if I had a whole world weighing on me. It sucked, seriously. And the weather didn't make my mood any better today.

But Band cheered me up alot. Full band was great, and the sec 4s presented Mr Tan with our small present. :D

Had alot of fun, I guess it was really precious, the practice. I teared abit lah, when we screamed we love Mr Tan. Yanling too. Haha. But really, band's such a great memory!

Esplanade Presents
Limelight Concert Amkss Symphonic Band

Concert of course, how can I possibly miss that out.
One word to describe, unforgettable.

I can't imagine performing with anyone else.
I truly enjoyed myself, thank you so much amkss band!

I walked out of the stage on the last piece with tears flowing out. Tears of joy. Sense of achievement for the past 4 years, I'm sure many felt that way too. (:

Hope the audience enjoyed the performance!
It wasn't the best we've performed, but most definitely to our best effort!
We rocked the stage, without a doubt.

On to the pictures!

I actually took alot more photos but it's with everyone else so I won't upload them till I get everything. (:

But anyway, here's a video Mamanem and I took in the Esplanade dressing room, filmed by Devin in replacement of Hazmei! Haha.

Just in case you didn't know, 2 years ago, we took the exact same video, in the almost exact same dressing room. (And it was filmed by Hazmei in his changing room. Here!

I have lots of videos taken in New York coming up!
I forgot to upload them!

:D

2008-04-09T19:46:00.003+08:00

I hate fuckers who are irresponsible and rude.

I hate you.
Fuck you and your face.

Fuckers. Hope you burn in hell for your uncountable sins.

2008-04-06T19:34:00.003+08:00

Band practice today was great.
We ran through all the pieces, and I've never felt that happy playing my clarinet.
Whatever pain that was burning through my lips, and hurting through my thumb, was numbed.

I looked at the section, and I really wanted to cry lor. Sigh. 4 years flew by so quickly.
Joycelin cried during piccolo march. I saw her tears, and realised how much we all have been through. It's really so so so much that I can't describe can..

Yuqing, sharlyn, weixiang, joycelin, benjamin and I went to eat after band.
We were all recalling some good old times together.

Today was our last band prac together.
Tomorrow's the last concert.

Thank you amkssband for bringing me this far!
Esplanade was where I started off as a senior, and so soon, I'm ending my journey there as well.

I love you dear clarinetists! I hope that in one way or another, I've managed to do my part as an sl, to make the section better. I don't know if I have lar seriously, but I really hope I did.

Lets make tomorrow's concert a really good one!

AMKSS band 79, Gwh.
We rocked the stage. (:

2008-04-06T07:34:00.003+08:00

Woke up a bit too early today. Haha. Band's starting at 9, and I woke up at 6.30. Lols.

Catch Amkss Symphonic Band at the Esplanade's Limelight concert!

Esplanade Concert Hall
Monday 07 April 7.30pm
Tickets selling at sistics!

- credits to chiamin

2008-04-05T20:48:00.003+08:00

Busy with school!

I know! 4 days of missing post! So unlike me. I'm sorry! But school has really been very very busy. All of a sudden, so many school bands decided to have their concerts in these few weeks!

So we've all been flying to all sorts of concert halls listening to several bands. And so many tests coming up, so many things happening, blogging has became more or less stagnant already.

Mummy's coming back tomorrow, and I'm very, very very happy! (:
Sigh. She's coming back just to watch my concert, before flying off to Africa. I really think I have the best mom on earth. I love you oma!

Band practices have been ending at 8 plus, now at least we are more prepared. But I still think the pieces have been quite a rush for all of us.

I think I had the worst night yesterday. But it's all over, and I'm happy, again. (:

But anyway, baby thank you for listening. Things just went overboard for me..
I love you!

Concert in 2 days time!
What a rush! GOOD LUCK AMKSS BAND.

Esplanade limelight concert.
My first concert with the senior band began there, and it's ending there too, so soon.

I'll miss band, alot.

(: Love you section!

And Happy early birthday Yee Yong!
Hope you donn't mind the poor acting skills! Haha.

2008-03-31T21:32:00.003+08:00

Shakira - Underneath Your Clothes

You're a song
Written by the hands of god
Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

I love you more than all that's on the planet
Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing
You know it's true
Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady tied to her manners
I'm tied up to this feeling

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

2008-03-31T20:37:00.002+08:00

Had 2 test today that killed me!
Maths was a killer, obviously. And so was geog.

P(Passing maths) = 0

But anyway, it was Monday blues today. School wasn't that great. Had chem remedial which was quite a drag..

Sectionals and full band-ed all the way till 8! Cool ah. Never ended practice that late before. Ah Neth gave some of us a lift home.

I shall try to do a lil homework now.

Bye (:

2008-03-30T20:37:00.002+08:00

Back to blog before I hit the books again!

I'm just back from J8, dropped by sasa and ended up spending like fifty over dollars :x

My weekend was okay.
I spent it mostly on well, band stuffs. Yes even today.

YESTERDAY, our practice started at an earlier time of 8am.
Practice was, so-so. We didn't sound great, but I sure hope we do in esplanade!
It was our dearest DENNIS aka weilin's birthday that day!
WEILIN! I try to find a suitable prezzie for you and give u asap alright! And anyway happy belated birthday!

We had a minor ticketing problem for the westwind concerts, so I ended up sitting with Mr Tan instead, all thanks to Ah Neth. That stupid cow forced me to do so.

Had sectionals till like 3 plus, and left home to meet up with devin for Daytona challenge.
Hehehe.

And obviously, the pro, ehem Pupeng, won lah. Haha. We also played that basketball thing which I lost miserably BECAUSE I don't play it, at all. Haha.

Anyway, went for West Wind concert and Mr Tan was late for 20 minutes! I waited alone at the foyer, till he came. Bought muffins for him, he ate, and we literally ran in after they finished their 2nd song. He all of a sudden said,"RUN." And started running, which caught me totally by surprise.

The 2nd half was fantastic! We only caught the first song of the first half though.
I felt so wierd, cos we were sitted at the stall seats to the front, which was actually the vip seats, and all the adults were everywhere. But nevertheless, I enjoyed the concert. (:

Baby picked me up with clinton, and we went home then.

TODAY.
Yesterday night Mr Tan called up to meet today for the stage layout for our esplanade concert. So this morning I woke up at 9 plus, got changed and all, and went out.

Dan Hui and I cabbed to Xinmin sec. Mr Tan drove us to eat, and we went to his place.
He bought a new car! And it's a convertible! It's super nice lah, he's rich what right.

Went home after the stage plan was done. We took hours to do it lah. Ah Neth was totally not helping in the process at all. Hah.

School tomorrow, with maths test!

Hitting the books now.
Bye!

2008-03-27T21:06:00.003+08:00

Took time off to blog, because I just recieved an sms from Caryn saying that mrs ismail postponed her test. THANK GOD SHE DID.

She didn't even state clearly which chapters she wanted to test! So much for being a teacher. -.-

Anyway, recently I have been hooked to this new show on youtube which is called Dr.Phil. It has super amazing real life stories, jaw dropping, VERY. I love it! Some episodes scared me a little, but never the less, what beats Dr. Phil solving real life situations on national tv? (:

Go watch it on you tube! One user has almost all the episodes which I'm faithfully watching right now. Hooked! Oops. Hah.

And I reallyyy realllyyy wanna change my lap. I've been using it for like, I don't know, 4 years? And it's getting very very slow! Mummy says if bro's getting a new one, I might be too! And it's super unfair, because bro only got his lap on his last last birthday and it's working perfectly fine!

Firstly, my dumb lap is in freaking korean which I don't understand a word of. And secondly, it HANGS once every few minutes or so, like after I clicked something. So dumb right?

Anyway I have no photos. Will update again sometime!

Byebye

2008-03-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

Sorry for missing so many days of blogging!
I have been really really busy with school lately, cos there's so many tests coming up and so many things to catch up.

I have been studying physics for the past few days, and I'd have to say that I really do suck at it. If lucky, perhaps I'd still pass.

There's geography test coming up and stupid mail haven't even confirmed which chapter she wanted to test. She kept changing and changing everything.

Rumours gone by today about bio test being postponed. There's no confirmation though, and I really hope they wouldn't postpone it till next week, because I have absolutely no time to study at all.

Westwind and xm concerts coming up! And as if my weekdays and weekends aren't already packed, thanks to the intensive remedial-ing our teachers has kindly offered.

Okay enough said, sorry I have no photos because school has been like, you know what I mean, and so, I won't be updating as regularly as I usually do.

To the Os!
I've been stopping my falling-asleep-in-class habit and that's a good sign because it's pretty hard to kick!

Work hard Pupeng!

2008-03-23T21:58:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging again, why? Cos I'm super bored. -.-

I dread school.

Father said today,
When do you know the sun is rising, and daylight is coming?
You don't see the day, till you see your enemies as your sisters and brothers. If you don't, you are still in the darkness of the night.
Love your enemies. Treat them like how you wish others would to you.

2008-03-23T21:25:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Went to church just now, after missing so many many masses. And it was okay I guess. I missed God. (:

After church, went over to square two. Solmart! One of my favourite shop in paradise. Hah. Bought korean custard cakes, which I super love, and some other stuffs too.

School's starting again tomorrow, and I'm so not looking forward to it. Especially with 2.4 on tuesday! ZZzzz..
This time I cannot pon, for sure. I walked passed Mr Ong the other day, and he went like,"Pupeng! I'm going to see you in PE attire next tuesday, yes?"
So annoying! ): I just replied yes without even looking at him. Argh can't stand him.

Concert is just 2 weeks away! We have just started working on Phantom, and till now, we still haven't recieved wck's piece yet! So an extra piece to chiong for concert besides phantom.

Okay I need to pack my room, AGAIN. Cos it's super messy now.

Byebye. (:

2008-03-22T19:53:00.003+08:00

It's hard to gain faith. Especially when it was once there and gone.
Just like the good old times.

Thanks for the good old memories.

I'm okay with it. Someday it will come..

So I woke up like 6.30am for band today. Bathed and all till 7. Ate breakfast and left home. Reached school at 8.

Practice was alright I guess. I thought the band sounded alright for the fact that perhaps most of us had just really started sectionals on that piece.

I think it's good that my life has been so stagnant for quite some time, thanks to the loss in interest for computer games, than I'd be pretty free for studies.

At least blogging is the only thing I do on the net, besides watching lame videos on youtube, but really, that's about it. And that's probably the only thing I do for entertainment at home, because I don't watch tv, at all.

I know, people stare at me with wierd faces when I tell them I don't like watching tv. Hah. I don't know why. Maybe it's cos I've been too wired down by tv for so long in my life, thanks to dramas.

Anyway, no photos, hah. I told you my life is boring.
I haven't done any shopping for like, forever.

And the other day Peiyu said shopping on Friday as well, then Zixiang smsed on Fri to go out with her too, I refused. Funny ah. Cos I had to clear my room and study.

I think something is wrong with me.

So Peiyu, if you're reading this, I need to shop, ok, I neeed!

I will go playing full swing after O is over!

Study hard Pupeng! Stop all the F9s!

Yes.
Jia You!

Anyway, this I must say.

YOU ARE A BIG FLIRT STUPID ARSEHOLE.

Don't worry,
I will pretend I didn't know you, at all. Not in the past 10 years, not ever.

(:

2008-03-21T10:08:00.001+08:00

I was watching this video on youtube.
Haha, quite funny, and random. But it's Hillary Clinton and Tyra Banks. (:

2008-03-21T07:32:00.004+08:00

It's 7.30 and I'm awake!
I talked to baby on the phone yesterday night till like 10 plus only, and I was already half asleep.

I was already half dreaming ya know?!
I dreamt that a bus uncle asked me to move to the back of the bus but a guy infront of me didn't want to move.

So over the phone, baby was rambling away, and I mumbled,"He's behind me. He don't want to move to the back."

And Baby got shocked, and was like,"Huh? Who behind? Someone behind you?? Where??"

LOL. Then I woke up and I told him I was like dreaming already, so we hung up.

Anyway, more NY photos! (Not in daily order again) Aren't you all getting bored already?

Carnegie Hall! One of the best music hall in the world.

Times Square! The coolest place ever. Everywhere is filled with blinking sign boards and cool ads! I love it! It's really like what you see on tv lor.

Where we lunched..

And I'm telling you, planet hollywood is super cool as well!
They display items and costumes used/worn by real celebreties in movies and events.

They had like a motor bike in the middle of nowhere, used in some movie, and even an outfit britney spears wore for her world tour years ago! Alot more too.

Our tour guides for our city tour in NY city. They're really friendly and nice people! ): I was so sad we were seeing them for the last time already.
I love that lady on the left! She's the one who's tagging along on our bus, telling us jokes and all.

Ken! Our tour guide from Singapore. He's really nice too! And funny. Haha. No we're not seeing him for the last time. Lol.

This is dearest Qian Yi, who was hostaging my phone to take pictures with her shuai ges. Haha.

My very cute juniors. They returned me my phone and I was laughing like hell when I saw these lah. Haha.

Times square at night! Very pretty!

We watched the musical Phantom Of the Opera and it was GREAT! I love love love the theater cos it was super grand and western-ish, love it!

Last day in new york city! We were all so sad that we were leaving so soon! ):

Mamanem and I in our 3rd hotel room, the super scary one.

Mario is the nicest guy ever. He is what I really truly miss in New York.
Mr Mario introduced himself to us as Super Mario, cos he's fat and he's well, Mario.

Throughout our whole trip, he was the one who drove us all to everywhere we needed to go. And it ain't easy to drive for 6 hours or more alright! And to wake up so early, drive a bunch of kids in a town that you are unfamiliar with.

He's such a wonderful guy!

When he was driving us to the airport on the very last day, just minutes before we reached, he spoke to us in the bus, saying that he really enjoyed the time spent with us in the past week, and told us that a smile from us could change the world.

You know I really nearly teared when I heard that okay, I really miss him so so much!
Sigh, sadly many were asleep when he said that, like only a handful of us were awake.
We all were like, thank you mariooooo.

Everytime we went somewhere, all of us would be looking forward to going back to the bus and seeing him!
Once, we marched to the bus chanting his name, mario! Mario! Mario! Hahahha.

I love you super much Mr Mario!

I koped Qianyi's sudoku when she was asleep on the plane. Haha.

Back in Singapore!

Baby came to pick me up from school, and cabbed home then. (:
Did a bit of unpacking, went to bathe, and then Mummy called me when she woke up. :D Changed and went out!

Just nice, it was our 16th month! Happy 16th dearest!
I think Mummy bored him cos she went shopping, haha. Went to eat and I can't really remember what we did. So yeah.

Unfair lor, Mummy spent super alot can? And the next day she brought bro shopping, and he spent alot also. She bought him clothes from Armani, he bought like 6 shirts and countless of bottoms. Claim that he's going poly and all that shit! Dumb can! And one shirt cost like $300+? So unfair right?! That day I only bought a shirt that cost less than $50 la! ): And it was supposed to be like MY birthday. -.-"

I think I had a very sad birthday this year. Spent whole day in school. Ate some dinner in some restaurant that I didn't really like.

Went home after that, but got to spend time with Mummy. :D

Uncle ben bought a cake for Daddy and I. Yeah, Daddy's birthday so happens to fall on the same day as mine. (:

Since he isn't around, yesterday night, I sang a birthday song to MYSELF, lighted the candle MYSELF, cut the cake MYSELF, and ate it MYSELF.

): I sound like some lame loner. Haha. But I'm so glad I'm 16! Unbelievable, I'm so old alr!

Anyway, it was Clinton's bday 2 days later. So happy belated Clinty! (:

I have been spending my birthday in band for the past 2 years! Today was the 3rd. Haha.

Have been sooooo long since I logged on to my friendster! So many testimonials not replied! Haha. I'm gonna abandon my friendster, so don't bother viewing it anymore. (:

Okay, I'm gonna pack my room now.
Byebye.

2008-03-20T19:50:00.013+08:00

Today just sucked. Totally, everything. Blasted my head off, wanted things to be good, but it wasnt. Oh well..

It's very wierd, how people love to know about their enemie's ongoing life. It tells, from everything you have said and done. Isn't it obvious enough?

Tomorrow is Good Friday.

And I feel I'm slowly starting to forget God. Like that huge role he used to play in my life has slowly been replaced by other superficial things that doesn't last, at all.
I'm sorry for being so ignorant.

It's very funny how people don't cherish the good times when it does happens, and only look back to realise how much they wish to be back in that position again.

I do feel that way. Right now.

Everything's so superficial now. Like they don't last enough for you to actually truly enjoy and treasure. They're just there as plain entertainment in this lame thing you call life. Everyone has to live through this lame period before we die, and sad to say, not every gains that happy an afterlife as well. Why is the world, and everything else, so unfair?

I'm just ranting away because I had a relatively bad day, or so it seems. I don't know. But class went on well, so that's a good thing to start off with on this bad day.

I'm very pissed with Daddy. Sigh.
It feels like I've drained all I've got so much that I can't really be bothered with being angry with him. Mummy, as usual, was just cursing him over the phone.

I don't really care.

Alrighty. To be kinder, I shall upload more photos of the NY trip. And hopefully I'd be a wee bit happier on the thought of the happy times through those happy photos.

911 memorial..

Upload more tomorrow!

2008-03-19T18:22:00.002+08:00

I wanted to post new york photos, but then I guess I'd take another hour or so to upload everything, so not today. Over the week ends I would yeah, promise. :D

School today was alright, I paid attention to all lessons throughout the day except for physics. I cannot stand physics, and mr chow is such a turn off... -.-

Nothing much to blog about, I ate alot today, so no dinner for me. (:

Devin is super funny can?

One day when we were shopping in new york, he asked me if I thought a belt was nice. I thought he wanted to buy it for his crush or something, so I said ya. In the end, he bought it for me for my bday. LOL. And the belt was designed to resemble the piano keys. Haha. Super cute luh. Thank you! :D

In just 3 more weeks, I'd be performing at my very last concert.
Esplanade is such a memorable place. My first performance there was indeed a blast. I really miss watsuthi! They were such great guests luh.

(: Amkss band has been such a memorable learning journey! Throughout the years, I guess it is really heartwarming to see the section grow closer together as time passed.

I'll definitely miss the great times with everyone! I really can't believe I'm stepping down soon. Cliched as it is, it really feels like just yesterday, I was still a sec one in the junior band..

The satisfactory of watching your own juniors progress is very very special. I love love each and every one of them. (: Oh man, I think I'm gonna cry. Hah!

The recollection band would be special this POP. I can't wait. (:

Esplanade! We're back again! Heh.

2008-03-18T18:13:00.051+08:00

I'm such a loser!
I'm STILL jet lagging can? I think it's partly because ever since I came back, I haven't really gotten any rest yet.

Okay, no, actually I did. I slept from 7 to 3 the day before yesterday.
But that doesn't count, because I woke up at 3, and so I was tired for the entire day.

Anyway, it was my 16th yesterday! :D

Not very fun though. Just went dinner at some korean restaurant with Mummy, bro, baby and yx.
But still, happy sweet 16 to me! I'm so happyyyyy. :D

Thank you all for all the messages, gifts and phone calls!

Especially my dearest section! They are super cute luh, they bought victoria's secret cosmetic case and eye liner for me from newyork! and the key chain and bear!
And the yet-to-recieve card from Mamanem as claimed that she made it on Sunday! :D
I super love you all!!

NY pictures!

He is Ah Neth! The person who named me Abigail.

Newyork and it's super wonderful weather!

We touched down New York and headed to syracuse, another 6 long hour of bus ride!
The plane ride was 24 hours, enough to kill us all already.

My roomies!

Choo :D

Joey :D

Dennis! LOL :D

Americans eat ALOT ok?!
One slice of their pizza is like so huge, it's equivalent to 2 slices of ours.
I remember Demi and I shared a slice, so I had like 1/2 a slice, and I couldn't even finish half of that 1/2 a slice.

My lovely section of 10! Big ah? Ya. Try doing a head count everytime. I hate it lor, but they are very sweet! They always help me count and tell me where's the disappearing ones. :D

Their switches are really like those you see on tv, I was so amused. Haha.

Shue kept disturbing us! So we pulled her into our room and tortured her. Haha!

Yeah!

And shue is very annoying lor! She makes all the photos she's in look so scary! Spot her heads!

After her, we had another annoying visitor! Guess who?

Sesame street lols

Our room was so messy we could barely walk around!

Our 2nd hotel room, which was the nicest among the 3 we stayed in. It was less scary than the others that we stayed in.

NBC studios!

We went up to the 67th floor where the observation deck was, and it was super windy and cold can! Everything were flying everywhere. Cannot stand it..

The Empire State Building. (:

Rehearsals :D

Performance day!
We performed at the New York Annual Symposium. I had lots of fun. :D The feeling was so great! When we finished the fantasy variations, the audience stood up and clapped for super long, I was so so happy. :D

And there were alot of musicians! Super cool. :D

Ah Neth, with our token of appreciation. It says New York Band Directors Association Annual Symposium. :D

Our performance area. A jazz band was performing.

After our performance, we went back to the hotel, and it straight away snowed!
We all grabbed our boots and windbreakers and ran downstairs to play. Haha. :D

The camera couldn't really capture the snow though. ):
I didn't know that snow flakes are really shaped as those that you see in pictures!

Burger king :D

Still got lots more! Statue of liberty blabla. Upload next time!

(:

2008-03-17T04:02:00.009+08:00

I'm having terrible jet lag.
I slept at 7, because shopping was so sucky, and only woke up now, which is like 4.05am.

I can't stand shopping in Singapore now! NY stuffs are so much cheaper and nicer compared to our pathetic market here. Sigh.. Not only fastfoods here suck, now even shopping sucks too. Boo.

So anyway, I shall start uploading the pictures already.
Not in daily sequence!

Changi!

He taught me how to play taidee(?) and so I was kept occupied with that game when travelling long distances! :D

There's still tons more!
Upload next time, byebye :D

2008-03-16T12:57:00.001+08:00

I just finished sorting out all photos!
They're all scrambled in my phone and digi cam, and I just finished uploading all of them into my com. They will be up soon! Promise! :D

Anyway, guess who's bday is it tmr?

Heh.

Hint* Eh.

I'm going bday shopping with marmie nowww.
Happy happy

Oh and btw,
sorry to those who smsed me but recieved no reply!
My phone went dead yesterday and I was so tired after visiting the docs!

I had a very very handsome doctor yesterday because my usual doc wasn't around,
and we was soooo suave worxzxzxz.
Haha, baby don't jealous.

Anyway, throat infection, perhaps due to the massive amount of pizzas and junk food I ate in NY.

I'm missing NY!

Okay shopping now, byebye!

2008-03-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

I'M BACKK YO!

Haha.
Super loads of photos! Like 400 ++ ??

I won't be uploading them too soon, but you all must still stay tuned yeah?

Anyway, I'm at Mim's in the comfort of my sofa. It feels great to be back, but I still miss New York though!

It was a great great 10 days with the fantastic band and lovely section, I can't ask for more!
So anyway, thank you all for making this trip so successful and worthwhile. :D

The flight to and fro was so horrible! 24 hours travelling, like a full day wasted alright.

I think it has been so so long since I last blogged, I'm starting to lose my touch already. Hah, is there such a thing?

But anyway, I'm gonna minimize all photos so as to let you all have a quicker load on your computers. Yeah yeah.

I've learnt alot on this trip!
I hope everyone has. I'm sure we all enjoyed it, didn't we?

Oh, and anyway, the performance went on okay.
I thought there were better practice days in the band room where we sounded better, but it was still a best shot, so good job. :D

Okay enough of crapping, I'm starting on the photos.
Bye bye lovelies. :D

2008-03-02T21:58:00.003+08:00

Just came home, and I'm very tired.

To my utmost horror, mummy will only return on tues, which means on the day I'm flying off, which means I'd have to do last minute packing and I don't even know till now if I have enough clothes or not!

I can't believe packing can be so troublesome! To think I actually wanted to dump everything I had into my luggage. Now I don't even have the things I need.

Had terrible shopping today which I won't mention.
Like shirts claimed winter clothes by a winter wear shop can be $79. I can buy any shit of that sort for less than $50.

Winter shopping in Singapore sucks so bad. I guess cos we will never get to experience winter even if the sky falls on us.
Lets all just freeze to death in those beautiful winter countries we're about to visit! Hurray!

Anyway, I had a terrible day. Okay terrible is too strong a word. Bad.
No wonder my eye twitched so much to get that warning into my head of the bad lucks ahead. No I don't really believe in such stuffs, but the way it irritated me, I had to didn't I?

And I'm so pissed.
I've been for the past few days. But I decided to let it all out today. Finally. Why I chose today, I don't know. Maybe cos it just came across my mind as a situation I cannot ignore.

I can't believe you're as ignorant and irresponsible as you look.
Stop pushing the blame onto us because you yourself caused your downfall.
Your bad habits?

HAHAHAHA.
(pardon me)
Fuck you.

Go find money in the drain, maybe somehow God would be kind enough to drop you some.

and ehem, it's nothing but,

I hate people who tries to make things better by not making things better.

Geddit?

See ya all in 2 weeks time!
I'd be off to NY from tues night, so sms me if you love me, and call if you miss!
;)

(won't be blogging for tmr nor tues cos I'd be busy with band and packing. So SEE YA)

2008-03-01T09:01:00.002+08:00

I'M WELL.

Eh, ya, I am. Lol.
It's raining outside, and idk if daddy allows me to go for band today.
Temp is back to norm! Fast right.

MC for 2 days again, hopefully later I can still play.

Collected my passport already, super happy cos I don't have to worry about it anymore.
I'm happy again cos I passed my geog test, which means my geog is a pass for overall!
Which also means, my humanities are all cleared with a pass, my english is a pass.
All I need to do is pass my physics test for my comb sci to pass.
YESSSSSS..

LOL.
I know lah, pass only, what big deal.
But really lor, it's rare to see me so concerned over my results.

I failed both maths miserably,
I passed 1 chinese test and failed another miserably,
I failed chem, miserably.

NEVERMIND.
At least chinese was an improvement on the 2nd test.

My studies suck, seriously.

Anyway,
yesterday was a terrible horrible vegetable day.

Thankyou Caryn Yx Amanda Baby Mrs Veda Wang Lao Shi and Mr Koh for taking care of me. (:

After school, Yx and baby sent me home.
Daddy brought me to the docs after that.
Still had to go collect passport you know?! I was dying in the ICA already.

So yah.
Doctor said overly dehydrated.
I think that two bottles of water baby bought would really come into use. Lol.

Went home, slept till night, woke up eat, slept again all the way till morning.
Alright!

Off to school.
Byebye (:

2008-02-28T21:01:00.007+08:00

I'm gonna update before I'm off to study.
My computer is seriously rotting.. It hangs so often I'm super compelled to smash it into pieces.

Here are pictures some of you have been anticipating, mostly taken by Laura Choo today. (:
I know, my blog's very sparse of photos.
And I look very ridiculous in the pictures ahead, but I don't really care.

Remember that huge bear xiaomarc was toying with during our class drama?
It belonged to ruishan, and it was passed around the whole class with everyone playing around with it. Haha. Cannot help it, it's really very cute!

Alright off to study, bye.

2008-02-27T18:36:00.002+08:00

I just realised that it has been pretty long since I was out with my friends.
Like really out, shopping, movies, and all.
I miss going out.

School has been quite alright these days.
I think I've been sleeping less in class already. Miracle, I know.

New York next week!
I'm nervous, excited, happy, yadayadayadaaa.

Especially for that conference. Can you imagine? Composers, band directors, musicians from everywhere watching us. I seriously can't. Haha. But I'm so excited!

I think the band has been working hard.
Really. (:
I'm so so glad.

So anyway,
I've been a pretty good girl these few days.
Now to add on to that image, I just collected my nerd specs yesterday.

And right, I passed my bio, miraculously. Thank you baby for the tips, LOL.
I think Mrs Veda was so expecting me to fail or something,
because I got merely 18/25, and she went like,

"I'm especially pleased with this student. Ha Pupeng. Keep it up."

I thought I had like full marks or something close to that,
in the end, diao, I had 18 only. Lol. But already, unexpected, I know.

I don't think I have enough clothes to keep me warm in ny!
I shall go dig my cabinet.

Good night! (:

2008-02-24T22:53:00.001+08:00

I was just on msn when a friend of mine sent me this link.
It's super funny lah, just watch it. (:

I think it's really true. lol.

2008-02-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

I'm finally done with Winter shopping!
Mummy's coming back with coat and boots which I hope I can fit.

And she's flying off to Africa now! ):
I'll miss her loads loads loads.

So lately, things aren't going so well.
I attended mass today, after weeks of missing God.

I prayed, and prayed, and I realised many things.
Thank you God for always letting me leave with a peaceful mind.

Smsed Joey before setting off cos I didn't know where to buy winter wear, or what to buy at all.
So she said PS, and off to ps! I told Darling we might see her there, but then instead we saw Dan Hui and IrisN at that same shop. Haha.

So we all chose gloves and hat and all,
and I saw this white jacket that's really nice, but it's like $189.

And I didn't know winter wear was so ex!
For 2 sets of thermal wear, it cost me $59 each, cos I'm super afraid of cold, and I bought the warmer one. Supposedly.

Just for thermal wear alright!
Imagine adding in all the clothes and everything. ):

Darling and I watched L change the world, and it was alright.
I guess the movie isn't a continuation of death note, but a story based on that?
I'm not sure, but if so, then L would have died twice.

Okay, whatever.

I wanna watch Leap years too! And P.S I love you.
And Jumper. And and...

Ya.

I'm pretty sure I won't be able to pass maths again tomorrow.
Cos I'm so tired now I doubt I'll be able to remember anything at all.

I was thinking on the bus.
But whatever, that was once upon a time.

I wanna change my blog url!

Any suggestions what to?

(:

I really think that memories of you are disturbing.
I don't know how, but that past with you, are set so deep in my mind, it feels like I can never live a life without images of you haunting me.

"I want to bring back the past I had with you.
It was special to me."

You're a liar.

One that I, in a naive stage of my life, mistakenly fell for.

And you don't know how long it took me to get over the fact that you were never true.

I'm very happy now, thank you.

I think that for the past 1 and a half years without you,
I've met someone who replaced that hurt you've caused, so deep.

In your face,
I will tell you.

I'm just waiting for the day,
when you will attempt to lie to me again.

But I hope that I won't,
because I'd rather not.

Please,
Don't come back.

2008-02-23T20:32:00.007+08:00

I know it's indirectly my fault,
but it's not like I had a choice not to do it this way.

Stop fucking push me when I've tried everything I could to make things right.

You make it sound like as if I lead a carefree life with nothing to do.
If you really think it's easy, why don't you try to be me? Lets see who's the one who breaks down first.

I'm not your fabulous wonder woman.
You need someone, go fuck yourself elsewhere.

I offered help,
you didn't appreciate.
Now you're making things worse,
go clear up your fucking shit yourself.

Don't expect me to wipe your ass after you finished with your shit.
Do your dirty job yourself because I'm not fucking Mariah.

And YOU.
Stop your fucking nonsense on everything.
I've had enough.

Don't fucking dare say I didn't try,
because if I didn't, I won't fuck shit bother at all.

----------

I AM HUMAN AND HUMANS NEED RESTS, IF YOU DIDN'T REALISE.

I'M NOT AS FREE AS YOU THINK I AM, AND I DON'T APPRECIATE YOU RUBBING SALT INTO WOUND THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I CAN'T GET JUST ANOTHER HOUR OF REST AFTER A WHOLE DAY OF SCHOOL.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

I'M TELLING YOU,

I

CANNOT

STAND

IT

GET IT?!

2008-02-23T19:33:00.002+08:00

Just came back from band.
Met Fei Yang in the morning, and he was late cos he overslept. Haha.
Apparently he went out with my dad till 5 this morning.
Which pretty much explained why he probably didn't talk much today.

So had a talk with all the sec 2s and 3s,
and I love my clarinet section.

(:

When I was on the way home,
the CC was having some celebrations that had all these chingay-looking vehicles lining up along the road, blocking the cars.

So funny, they were playing some music, which were all band pieces.
I heard 3 of them, Flight of the bumble bee, Fantasy Variation, and El Camino.
?? Lol.

Okay I'll study maths later if I'm not sleepy.
I'm gonna pass this test alright.

Bye.

2008-02-23T08:32:00.002+08:00

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

I'm awake early. Gotta go for band in an hours time.
Didn't blog yesterday, cos I didn't have the time.

I attempted to wake up at 2am to study the day before, because yesterday was chem test and bio.
So I slept at 9.
But my alarm didn't ring, and I woke up at 5.30 instead.

Bio was alright, but chem just went downhill.

Maybe I'm just disappointed cos Miss Tay explained and I looked like I understood, but I didn't, not a single thing.

The paper is a goner. And I don't know when, but Miss Tay left a note on my table, which made me very upset, because I didn't want to fail this test.

Went to band with that dampened mood, and Mim called after my jab.
And I felt even more sad, cos just the day before she called and asked if I studied for the test, and I said I was studying, which I really was lah, but it was bio I was studying.

Sian.
Mamanem was funny.
Said that she never saw me cry over a test before.

Cos I never!
But Os are coming, and I'm still not on track.

I'm off track in everything la.

You don't know what I mean...

Alright, off for band now.
Bye

So impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
'Cause who's to know
Which one you let go
Would have made you complete

2008-02-21T20:27:00.004+08:00

Don't feel like blogging, but I will, since class drama was a success today.

I'd only blog about drama, cos everything that happened anytime after that just went downhill.

Class drama rocked so much. I really think those effort put in during the 2 rehearsals were great.

So many of them impromptu-ed! I laughed like hell on the Shao Kwang's part. Haha.
The rest were alright, I think it went on really well. (:

I love 4/4! (:

After drama, nothing fantastic happened for the day.
So I won't talk about it.

I'm very annoyed now.

That's drifting apart.

I hate it because it's so superficial.

You don't know.
You never do.

2008-02-20T20:31:00.003+08:00

I almost forgot!

Overdued photos Mamanem pressed me for this morning. (:
They are so dark lor, I can barely see them.

And now that New York trip is so ultimately confirmed and it's JUST 2 WEEKS AWAY,
I'm uber uber super excited!!!

Can you believe it?!

We'd be half a world away from everyone for 10 wonderful days.
Wooots~

I'll miss baby badly!

Teehee, gonna buy winter clothes soon, so excited!
:D

Broadway everywhere, music everywhere, chio and hot ang mohs everywhere,
So cool right?!

I'm looking forward to our performance.
Gonna be one of the last few performance the sec 4s will be having.
And for this, it's in oh wonderful New York.

PICTURES PROMISED!

05 March, soon!

Loves!!

2008-02-20T19:36:00.004+08:00

Bloody blogger,
didn't allow me to blog yesterday!
Supposedly detected some dumb virus in my com which disallowed my cookies to function properly or even function in the first place.

Anyway, today was drama rehearsals.
It's actually only our 2nd time rehearsing, and things went on pretty well.
Yay 4/4!

Plus hor, we don't have full dress rehearsal, and till now I still dono what am I gonna wear for stepmother. Lol lol.

GOOD LUCK 4/4!
We can do it :D

Hopefully the mikes don't screw up tomorrow.
Last year it screwed up so badly..

Okay pictures taken today! :D

Lovely friends!

Stupid yx, taking a photo with Mamanem so difficult lor!
She keep wanting to come in!

The spastic face!

After much struggle,

Mamanem! :D

Class drama was great lor seriously.
Though I know I didn't help out much other than doing the parts I'm supposed to appear it, I really think it's very nice. (:

Biggest thanks to those who put in so so so much effort!

Xiao marc and Carin's scene which I happened to snap with my phone. (:

Spot xiaomarc?

Class drama is truly wonderful.
I dono why I'm so happy over such a small thing, but I'm really very very happy lor.

I'd once in a while have flashbacks of how I badly didn't want to come to school last time.

Everything about it sucked to me. Friends, teachers, class, even band.
But the things that I hated about the school, were the ones that changed me, and my life, and I'm pretty sure, many around me too. (:

Perhaps if I hadn't come here, I wouldn't have such great friends who truly care and everything about me.

And maybe I wouldn't have such fond memories of band.

And maybe, or most definitely, I wouldn't have met a person like him to take care of me. (:

Sec 4 life is truly the best.
Even with those books and tests piling up everywhere.

I love 4/4!

(:

All the best for our drama! Weee~

2008-02-18T20:09:00.002+08:00

I KNOW I KNOW.

Right. I'm sorry okay, for not blogging these few days.
It's not that I want to right?! You all know me, I live with blogging.
The internet was down, and it nearly killed me to know that I'd be deprived of my com for days.

Sorry lah!
Like as if I'm not sorry to myself too. ):

Anyway,
this I must complain.

Guess how many tests I had today?

FOUR.

COOL AH?!

And to think that I actually studied for like half of them!
Social studies and Maths I studied but didn't understand.
Chinese cannot study, Geog is like. Whatever.

I totally hate geography now.
And that woman in that pink outfit who stood infront yelling at us in the geography room today.

That pink outfit really pulls down her already-ruined sex appeal.
I wonder how can her husband stand her unkempt hair and height and that pink outfit.

We could feel that disgusting weight off our shoulders after we finished that disgusting test of hers.
She don't even teach proper lessons, and now she wants to give a test on what crap we have learnt from her.

-.-

Enough about her already.

Nothing much to blog about the last few days. Because all have been pretty much the same. Mundane you might say.

Before I slept, I studied.
Woke up, I studied.
Went out, I studied.
Came back, I studied.
Before going to sleep again, I STUDIED.

I look ridiculous holding a textbook when I was out.
I don't want people to look at me wrongly, so I went home to put my text before going to ntuc.

I'll be discriminated by the cashiers, and the shoppers, and everyone around me, till I won't want to step out of my house ever again.

I still remember this funny incident.
When I was locked up in my own room, literally.

My bro came in, went out slamming the door hard, wanted to come in again, but the miracle door refuse to open.

I was laughing so madly in my room while my brother was panicking outside trying to "save" me.

I want to ask him to give it up because I'd rather be stucked in my room since it was a weekday.

Won't it be so damn hilarious if I were to call up Mrs Veda and say,

"Hello Mrs Veda? This is Pupeng. I'm sorry I won't be going to school today because I'm afraid I'm physically unable to do so."

And of course, she'll think that I'm sick lah.

"Huh why? You're having fever again?"

And then I'll proudly reply

"Oh no. Because I'm locked in my room."

Anyway, in case you were wondering,
my brother managed to open the door in the end.

Funny ah.

Okay I will end this post here,
because I'm getting changed for dinner with marme.
She's back today! :D

Byebye~

2008-02-14T21:38:00.004+08:00

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day!

It has been lovey dovey, and I guess today was by far the best valentine's day I've lived through, ever.

I woke up lethargic as usual, but upon stepping into the class, wishes of this happy day flowed in and that alone made me indeed, really really happy.

Just like last year, people started exchanging gifts, love birds walked around with huge flowers in hand, everyone looked so happy.

Thank you those who gave chocolates and letters and everything sweet, you all really really made my day. (:

All in all, I've never really celebrated Valentine's day, because that word called Love used to be so very insignificant to me.

I really didn't know what was Valentine's Day all about, nor which day it falls on.
Secondary school changed that. Life here is indeed unforgettable.

Today, I bumped into many many countless of old friends who have changed so so much over the years.

Booksmart old friends with high way-above-ankle socks, are now side by side with the one they chose to spend this special day with.

Even for those who are alone, had flowers in hand, in which I'm pretty sure signifies something special to them.

I feel happy to see these old friends of mine grow so much over the years.
If we look at it, time flies so fast, perhaps in just a few years time you'd be recieving wedding invitations from long lost friends, or close mates that you've known for years.

Growing up is indeed beautiful isn't it?

I prepared gifts for my lovely juniors whom I spent part of my day with. (:
They are the ones who make up my teenage life, so they all deserve some love as well. (:
Happy valentine's day to all you lovelies!

I made last minute gifts for all of them. (:

Had a birthday surprise for lovely Yuqing! I hope she liked the cake and everything. (:

A rare shot with the birthday girl. :D

And the senior who had everything planned. (:

Happy Birthday in advance dear Junior! (:

My valentine's day was no different from anyone's.
Spending time with the person you cherish, appreciating small efforts put in just for you.

Baby and I spent our day in PS. We wanted to buy another ring, because the old one is in a state that you wouldn't wish to see.
Scratches, and the diamond in the middle has fallen off for mine. Very pathetic, I know.

Thank you baby for the rose, the picture, the ring, and the meal. (: You're really the besttt.

We walked around PS after Baby accompanied me to daytona.
And I hate to say it, but there were couples Everywhere.
I mean, yeah it's valentine's day, but it was quite disturbing to see this rare a sight. How often do you see couples everywhere? I guess it's afterall a once a year thing.

I can't really remember what I did on Valentine's Day for the past few years.
I think I used to just let it pass and go, watching my parents exchage cards and kisses, that's all.

Maybe that's what made this year's so different.
Cos all my life I never had a Valentine.

Before you read on, I suggest you click the X button if you cannot stand mushy stuffs.

Thank you baby for making my day. (:
Sorry ah, the card very unprofessional (yx say one) cos it had ink smudges here and there, I didn't dry them properly. ):

The card was partly hand made, and you know my art, it's very terrible. So, yah.

I know I'm such a tempertamental person that has bad days coming without warning,
and I hold many things to myself that you always wish I would say.

It's not that I don't want to, but sometimes personal things should be kept this way to me. Because things that are unecessary trouble, shouldn't be getting in our way, at all. And since I'm always getting angry, I don't want to let such stuffs make things much more worse already.

Tomorrow is our 15th month,
No matter how much my mom asks me if I have a spare if you ever leave,
or how much my brother say that bf/gf have to be changed every month,
You know that's someone I'm not.

It wasn't an easy 15 month, phone calls that had both of us hanging up in anger, and things that came in between making things turn ugly, how we can quarrel on our 1 year anni that made you come all the way under my block with donuts that you queued for ages.

No matter what, I still love you baby!

A wise man once said,
We come to love not by finding a perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Thanks for being perfect to me. (:

All the world's a stage
And all the men and women merely players
They have their exits and their enterences
And one men in his time plays many parts

2008-02-13T19:52:00.002+08:00

HELLO.

I'm fat.

Haha random.

Anyway, I'd not blog about school today, because it's the same as every other day.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day!

I know everyone's going out with their bf, gf, bff, whoever it is.
I'm pretty sure the shopping centres will be super crowded with couples everywhere.

Me neh?
Neh ni neh ni neh neh,
I spending with clarinets cos we'd be having sectionals then!
Heh, and desmond chow.

Funny, he got no date?

Yayness.

I still remember vday last year, was cool.
Everyone walking around giving gifts and flowers and bears and blabla..

And if you'd realise, teachers who are in love would be very happy on that day,
That means the class would get lesser scoldings because they'd be busy thinking about their date after that.

so unless you're sway and get teachers whom no one wants (plus having menopause somemore), then good luck lor.

Surely they'd spill out their jealously by attacking you for things that you don't deserve to be blasted at.
That would surely make it an unforgettable vday.

We totally bullied Mr Chow in class today.
Cos last year, he was sweating profusely (he always am) on Vday while secretly flashing shy smiles when teaching.

So this year, he was, also and again, smiling, but this time, not secretly. You should have seen how big his mouth was, flashing those whitened-the-night-before-to-look-handsome teeth each time we tease him about having a date.

He went on to defend himself by saying,
"No lah. All I can say is, I have no date tonight."

Hahaha. He's a loser at defence.
So we proceeded with the torture by bombarding him with questions like where's he going tomorrow, and what will he be wearing blabla.

We all suggested he wear his dark blue stripped shirt he has, cos it looked good on him. And again, shyly, he smiled with a simple word of appreciation,"Thank you. *shy "

Haha

So I spoke out with a very good suggestion
"Mr Chow! Tmr when you wear that shirt, must wear singlet inside, if not will have sweat patches cos you always sweat!"

*Mr Chow laughs.

If you add up how many times we teased him, and how many questions he answered, including how many times he had to explain that he didn't have a date tonight,

that roughly already wasted half an hour of the lesson.

Smart not?!

:D

I made this up myself, cos I was bored.

If Mr Chow marries Miss Chee (replacement for Mdm Chong),
Maybe their kids would be called Bye?

P(their kids being named bye)
= 1

Mr Chow + Miss Chee = Baby Bye.

Geddit?!

Lol

Not funny.

Today is Baby's sweet 16!

Heh, had to follow the bday boy around lor, since he's the king for the day, oh wells. Lucky ah, once a year only.

Happy Birthday Teo Yu Jun! I love you! :D
Big and red. Just nice for you.

:D

2008-02-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

BoA when she was 13. Very pretty and cute!

She's got a new album released!

It's called "The Face", one that's released shortly after "Love Letter" that kicked off merely a few months ago.

She's so greatttt. :D

2008-02-12T18:09:00.000+08:00

I'm abandoning my friendster acc.
Soon I guess. Maybe. Friendster's getting boring.
Myspace is boring too. So is facebook.

Life's getting boring.

Today, all the teachers decided to pms at the same time.

Early at the start of the day, Mrs Veda was like.... -.-

Stupid can, no collection for fund fiesta, the other time, others also didn't donate, and yet she didn't say anything. I'm sure she had to scream and shout just because I didn't donate this time round?

I got nothing to donate what, cannot is it?

Stupid kept screaming and saying what have I not benefited anything from the school,
please, unless you're some all so prestigous school, then yah, I'd gladly agree that I have.

If you tell me that education crap was provided here there,
please, you think you're the only school offering education to students is it?
We pay to be here. And it's not like as if the school don't gain anything from the collection of funds. They do right? So just because I didn't give this time round does that mean that next time round I won't give?

Does it mean that I didn't give the other time round?

So why never scream at the students who didn't give on first collection?!

What the fuck nonsense.

And only pin point at me, say I'm giving lame excuse.
(Which is true cos I lied my way through. Lol)

Me: I went Malaysia, so no one donated.
Veda: How come cannot? There no relative?
Me: How to donate ringet?
Veda: Cannot change money is it?
Me: You know if change will lose alot right? My mother also don't let me change, she rather keep it.
Veda: Then your father?!
Me: He overseas.
Veda: WHAT KIND OF LAME EXCUSE IS THAT!

What lame?!
Lame then go home la! Cannot walk then go home la!
What the hell!

You really think my father in Singapore ah?
Call him lah! See if he answers or not. Dumb shit.

You also think my mother in Singapore?
Call her lah! See you can get her or not!

You think my parents are teachers, everyday in Singapore is it?!
Chinese New Year no need to work?!

Bloody hell.
Spoil my day.

Say I early in the morning come to class and sleep.
Ask me to go see a doctor some more.

I'm the only one sleeping in class ah this morning?
So the rest not human? Or you blind? Cannot see?

And I never even sleep in bio. Talk so much.
Forever so unsupportive of our class,
whatever that we do is never satisfying to you, why don't you go find other classes then?

After stupid VE lesson which was like !@*%,
we had a surprise eng test that Miss Karim conveniently forgot to inform us about.
That was a small matter, so we didn't really mind. And she was nice, at least.

After that, Mr Ong scolded us.
Say that till 10.05, when he didn't come up, we had no initiative to go look for him.

Yes, we had no initiative to look for him.
But whose responsibility is it to come up to class in the first place?

And till 10, since we didn't go down, why can't HE come up?
Must scream at us because he fail to fulfill his responsibilities?
So annoying can?

Had to run annoying 1.8km, played some netball in which we didn't do anything at all.

Sai can PE. Don't know why is it 2 periods in the first place. Don't learn anything, lose like probably 80 calories or so, that's it.

THEN after PE, we were scolded by Miss Tay.

Said we took a long time to change after PE blabla.
By the time our lesson ended, already almost 11.10.

We queue like for 5 minutes or so. Sometimes even longer.
Lets say 11.15, we eat 10 minutes, 11.25.
Walk up, 11.30.

How to change?

Had to explain to Miss Tay that we really had no time.
At least she listened, unlike Mrs Veda who just blasts at you unreasonably.
Really can't stand her.

THEN after chem, which went on quite well cos we started on something new today,
Miss Deepa decided to come into class to give us a lecture after maths.

Whole day of scolding, yes?

Sucked.

2008-02-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

I'm downloading songs again!

And Ares is taking so damn damn long. -.-

Okay I know it's uber late now.
But I can't sleep, don't know why. No photos to update. Boring post.

School today was just, okayyyy.

Like okay, okay.
I know you don't get what I mean. But whatever.

And you know what?

I've been listed for Bio remedial every Monday for an hour or so, because I failed my Bio test which I had all the questions to.

Funny hor? I already know what's gonna come out, and I still fail.
Pluss, I studied.

Strange?

And the funniest thing is,
I passed physics for the first time ever, in my entire life.

I'm serious!
I've never ever ever passed physics before.

I can feel that I'm getting smarter.

Can you?

:D

Band today was, blah.
I got pissed with myself because I couldn't run the semiquavers I previously could.

And the whole place was so filled with noise,
even Mr Manan(or however you spell his name) had to cover his ears when he walked pass.

All the instruments everywhere were clashing like no body's business.
And noise is one thing I really cannot tahan sia. So, yar. Sectionals went on like...
That.

Mr Desouza was kind today.
Sat in his car for the first time. Wah finally he got car siol. Hahaha.

Band was dismissed very chop-choply, not much announcement. Nothing to check. Nothing to scold. Nothing to say. Byebye.

I'm so happy because this week is so filled with, events!

Eh sort of.

Valentines, Birthday, Anni, and umm. Yeah that's about it.

Valentines day around the corner!

I know Clarinets, all whining about sectionals on that day right.

Sorry lor ):
I know my members all very attractive and all, I also got date lor, but bo pian. Tahan hor darlings. We can do it! Muaha.

Hopefully Desmond don't last minute decide to meet his gf and pang seh us again.
Lol.

Eh till now America still dono on or not.
Mummy so excited to buy for me new clothes.

Not because she love me and the fact that I'm travelling so far alone.
But because the clothes she buy for me she can then again wear them for herself next time. -.-

Cool right. Like killing two birds with one stone.
And chopping two trees with one knife.

Whatever, I dono where that tree and knife came from.

Okay I think I'm sleepy now.
I'll go sleep.

Night night dear valentines.

2008-02-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

Another blog entry before I'm off to the showers.

Valentine's Day is round the corner!
Like last year, I'd be celebrating with Baby 3 days straight.
13th - Boy's Birthday
14th - Valentine's
15th - Happy 15th month.

(:

It's very funny, how Desouza said last year that even for us, we have "Chu 1" "Chu 2" "Chu 3"

Now the festive season is more or less over,
and school's just a few hours away.

I dread thinking about having to sit through lessons and lessons of torture.
Especially with it being the start of a brand new week.

It means having to repeat the screaming and scolding sessions all over again.

Recap on last week's torture session.

Nothing much besides the fact that Mr Goh has been having his menopause lately, causing him to be very temperamental these days.

And Mdm Chong proceeds on to being her usual selfs, screaming to make sure the whole world understands and hears her anger through that thin high screeching voice of hers.

She can be heard not only 5 classes away, but a whole block away as well.

No I'm serious.

Don't believe?

Ask Grace.

I believe these overviews of the teachers we have in school is enough to keep us awake throughout the night with their voices ringing in our heads.

They're really very scary.

That's why I dread their lessons.

Not Mr Goh, but. You know..

Her voice, sigh, buay tahan one.
Serious.

I'd pick any other teacher over her, including the lioness. (Mrs Ong)

If any teacher were to ever compete on whose voice is the loudest
Walau, confirm plus chop, Mdm Chong would win anyone pants down.

Spare me the horror please.

Oh great, first two lessons, Maths.

- Bang.

2008-02-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

Seal - Amazing

I want you to always feel amazing..

Everyone says you’re amazing

Say you don't know how to do it now
So you run
It’s not that you’re bleeding, but you’re through with it now
So you run

I know that you need it, you can’t live alone
So you run, so you run

Everyone says you’re amazing now that you’re clean
Only you know who the real ones are cause you’ve seen
There’s only one question I want to ask is it healing
When you hear everyone say you’re amazing
Does anybody ask you?

Do you cry in your sleep and do you feel ok?
When you run

Thinking it’s Doomsday you got to let it go
So you run, so you run

Pretend you don’t see it, that we can live a lie
When you run, so you run

Everyone says you’re amazing now that you’re clean
Only you know who the real ones are cause you’ve seen
There’s only one question I want to ask is it healing
When, does anybody ask you?

Cause I know that you’re real, amazing, amazing, amazing

Everyone says you’re amazing now that you’re clean
Only you know the real ones are cause you’ve seen
There’s only one question I want to ask is it healing
When you run.

Everyone says you’re amazing

2008-02-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

Got watch not the fashion show?!
Heidi's super chio right! :D

Anyway,
I watched BoA's video on youtube all over again cos I was bored this afternoon.
Really lor. I think I've watched almost all of it already.

Tsk tsk.

Anyway,
I super love the last song performed by Seal!

It's playing on my blog now. (:
Lyrics above!

Okay school's starting again tomorrow.
):

Back to school!

See ya all tmr!

2008-02-10T14:12:00.000+08:00

My friendster is pissing me off real bad.
Why is it so that each time I visit my own profile the whole damn window gets hanged?!

#@!%!..

FOUR TIMES. Idiot..

-.-

Anyway,
I'm so bored I can die.

Boring Sunday.
And in just a few hours time, it'll be back to school, again.

BORING.

):

Shopping, anyone?

2008-02-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

Huh lowwww..............

I'm so bored..

Just came back from movies with Baby!
And Ah Long Pte Ltd is kind of crappy.

I mean ya lah it's funny and cute and sweet yadayada,
but seriously, do Singaporeans have better creativity to come up with better plots/storylines/movie-as-a-whole?

No offence to Jack Neo or whosoever,
but the storyline seriously, had no specific plot to anything or at least a focus.

So funny lor. So what's the point of the whole show? (Besides not borrowing money from loan sharks)
The way they made up the whole story/plot(if there's even one) can be described in one word.

Lame.

But I'd give credits to the super hilarious show which made the whole audience laugh till maybe some peed in their pants or something.

It's so funny there's no way anyone can leave the cinema without laughing at least 10 times.
Unless you don't understand chinese and a bit of hokkien/cantonese/hakka/whatever dialague they used.

Even so the english subtitles, although don't bring out the mood in those jokes they cracked, should be able to make you laugh.

Anyway I would rate the show a 5/10. Half for the laughters, other half lost due to crap storyline.

So enough about Ahlong already.

We went to catch the crap show at Cathay Cine.
So shiok can because everyone's so busy bai nian-ing at home leaving shopping centres empty. :D

I've never seen orchard that empty on a weekend before, ever.

And we were so fuper sway because we bumped into Baby's cousin after the show.

She saw us??

Should she be bai nianing too?
I don't know. ):

What else to do, we quickly siam-ed and disappeared down the escalator.

Talking about shopping centres,
they are finally open!

Mummy came back the other day hoping to do some shopping,
but to our horror, all shopping centres were closed, even ntuc.

So bad can. CNY must close meh? I don't see them closing on hari rayah lor.
So this year cny didn't do any shopping with Mim. Sigh wasted.

So anyway,
Here are the pictures from the past few days. (:

Okay enough!

I think there's more, but I'm lazy to upload them. :D

I'm getting fat,
Time to slim down.

I think I've been fulfilling my new year resolutions pretty well.
They're not fulfilled, but in the midst of.

As a matter in fact, school has been pretty alright because...

I got 10/15 for my geog test.
HAH.

Not very good I know, for some of you.
But hello, since when do I ever pass geog?

Counting the fact that I only studied half a chapter! (No time lah deh. I borrowed yx's book for probably an hour or so.)

The other half was just great crapping away and added with a bit of bullshit here and there.

:D

And slimming down!
I've been doing situps everynight!

Part of my oh so great plan to lose weight, which isn't really working.

MAMANEM you do how many per night?!

Got win me not?!

I did 100 yesterday! Don't jealous ah!
Haha :D

Aiyah so slim already lose weight for what you.....

Okay I'm off to Ebay.
I wanted to buy my socks but waliew, it's unavailable now. ):

Okay byebye.

2008-02-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

It's getting late, but I'm being nice enough to wait for Baby to reach home. And he's taking like forever.

Anyway, I just watched the Victoria Secret Fashion Show 2007 on youtube for like the 5th time probably.

So funny lor, why everytime when I tell people I like watching VS's fashion shows they all look at me with funny faces?

Just because I like to see pretty girls strutting down runways in pretty lingeries you all think I'm wierd.

I'm a girl and it's in any girl's right mind to be attracted to pretty lingeries right.
You mean you like to wear tattered and torn bras meh? No what..

And anyway I don't watch the show because I'm leachourous and love to stare at girls in underwears,
because all my fav supermodels are doing the show! And I'm so happy.

Heidi Klum, Izabel, Adriana, Selita blablabla.

I only remember Heidi's last name or second name or whatever you call the angmoh's surname.
Not like their first time doing the show lah ya but they're still very pretty and I like them alot. :D

(:

For those of you who like to watch pretty girls walking down long runways too,
you can catch them on Channel 5 Sunday 10pm! I think I'll watch it again if I have the time.
Leachourous guys who needs to fulfill their desires can go watch too. Although it's just underwears you're staring at.
Whatever, I don't see why guys get so excited over underwears... -_-

So as I was saying,
VS's Fashion Show 2007
Special appearences by Will.I.Am, Seal and Spice girls! It's the coolest fashion show of the year alright!

It's really super awsome lor.
And this time is even cooler. One girl was lucky enough to walk down that runway after they combed dono how many states and cities in America.

Okay! I better not give away too much of the show. Watch it yourselves okay!

Sorry ah, blogger's not allowing me to post pictures right now due to some technical problems so I guess you just have to wait till I'm free again next time.

Neh ni neh ni neh neh..

I'm so lame.

I was just shopping online again, for perfumes this time round,
and you know Victoria's Secret has got alot of really cool stuffs lor!

I was actually looking around for their bags and all, and I didn't know they've got fragrances that came in such chio packaging!

You all must be wondering like since when was I a fan of VS,
I'm telling you since like very long liao lor.

I'm just very sad because buying their items on Ebay are such a rip off.
Many of you will be very upset to know that the items sold on ebay are probably like twice or more times the original amount.

All the lame shipping cost and tax or gst, you know, that kind of stuffs that you can think of to charge everything more.

So because of that,
I don't really dare to buy those stuffs online.

For a brand like VS, actually I thought it's really reasonable since I was expecting it to be like way way more ridiculously priced, but compared to brands like Guess, it's very much cheaper.
And it's authentic one okay.

I can already hear all of you yawning in tears upon reading this blog.
I shall apologise for letting my shopping desires bore you, but I cannot help it.
VS things are really very chio.
I'm refering to the other things they sell.
They don't only sell underwears that are almost too ridiculous to be worn at home okay.

I really dono why people will always link underwear with vs.

Okay, enough of underwears and pretty girls.

Going movie tomorrow!
With Baby of course.

Eh next week's Valentine's day liao!
No link, but I wonder if I will get more than 1 gift.

Hehe!

:D

2008-02-07T12:03:00.000+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI people!

I know many of you are gleaming with joy on the handful of hongbaos you all recieved.

I, on the other hand, recieved less than 10 red packets this year.
I know, very sad.

):

Anyway!
My new year eve was spent with Mim. (:

At first we had dinner with bro at Pizza hut.

Why pizza hut, mainly because all the freaking chinese restaurants were fully booked.
what to expect. -.-

Bro successfully pissed me off to my limits just before the dinner.
But whatever, the dinner went on without quarrels anyway, amazingly.

The pretty,

Resemblance?

Cute ;D

Me and my brother. Look alike?

Okay, I still have lotsa photos.

Upload next time! Going out now. :D

Byebye!

2008-02-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

Mummy just called again. (:

Mummy made me so pissed today and yesterday!
Okay it's not totally her fault. Actually it isn't.
But I really hate it when we all have to plan such things together.

My brother is the ultra annoying person who don't gives a shit about anything.
Says he will renew his passport one day, next day say no, the next day again say okay, and now, NO AGAIN.

#@%$ right?!
Spoiling all the plans and everything.
And I bet CNY will be a huge disappointment again.
Because the two lazy assholes at home will only wake up at noon time when everything's already over, just like last year.

That's what I hate about them.
Even at CNY, I don't feel that festive mood.
I don't look forward to it, not even the hongbaos which are pathetic by the way, but it's not that I really care how much I recieve, I'm 16 and I don't think hongbao can help any much in expanding my pocket money.

Come on lah just look at the shit house right now,
who's doing anything for anyone? No body.
All these years I've been doing all the sai kang.
You think I'm Mariah? Fuck you.
I cannot stand it so I apologise for my vulgarities.

It's not Mim's fault and I see no reason why she should even apologise to me.
Why should she always be the one apologising when such things happen?

And I don't see why I should always be the one planning all these.
Isn't that YOUR duty? Why should I always be the one putting in effort to make all everything happen?
You don't give a shit about anything right?

You don't remember what happened do you.

I asked you last year if you loved me.
You cried and said yes.

If you really do,
then I really think you're loving the wrong way.

2008-02-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

I think it's scary how everyone's growing up so quickly.
Time flies so quickly I'm starting to panic over my own future.
I know it's quite lame as to how much a person like me can even achieve in the future.

But seriously, when I was younger, I was dying to be a doctor.

Okay. Can you imagine me being a doctor?
I can't. I'd probably slap my patients if they get annoying. My clinic wouldn't last a week.

Throughout my entire life, many many jobs and careers have came across to me as suitable, or maybe "easy".
But I figured no matter which line you are in, there are bound to be challenges that you face, even if we see that singers just sing to earn a living.

I used to stare at tv actresses in Singapore and critisize on how pathetic they are to be unable to make it big in that industry.

Maybe such lines like,"Aiyah Singapore small market, media here die lah." sounds familiar to you. Maybe you've been guilty of saying such things. (I am)

But now I realise, how many people can actually take the stress of having the whole world pouring their ugly comments over you like there's no tomorrow?
Or even trying to be someone you're not on camera?

To me, the best occupation is simple, to be a student.

I can't imagine how much life would change when I hit my 30s.
Assuming I still have a blog then.
Perhaps my shopping posts and rants would be replaced with political issues?
Maybe I'd be complaining about my new bastard boss?

Life would be so boring.
):

I think even singers have a hard time trying to live their everyday life as ordinary as possible.

Try carrying a baby around with people sticking their cameras in your face.
The next day you wake up, you're on the headlines with a picture of you leaving ur baby at the table because you went to the counter for a minute or so to get a drink.
Media can make almost anything turn ugly.

And look what the media has done to Britney?

They got her shaving her head bald.

Maybe we're all sitting here and shaking our heads at poor Britney,
but who knows when we'd be just like her when we grow up?

You think Britney would think that she'd shave her head bald when she was younger?
No what.

So anyway, that's a digress.

I still can't imagine me as a grown up.

Maybe by then I'd be more feminine? Maybe by then I'd have stopped my vulgarities?
Maybe by then I'd be a famous business woman/actress/taitai.

Just maybe.

(:

2008-02-05T18:38:00.000+08:00

AND HOR!

My mummyy already agreed.
This birthday,

SHE WILL GET ME A PIANO.

You all witness already ah!
I'm so happy I can pull my hair out!
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

HAHA.

And she better not be playing this time!
Cos she already promised!
Muahahaha.

I'm so happy!

I know it's very pointless for me to say it here when so many of you already have that black thing,
or white, or whatever.

BUT IT'S ALOT TO ME LOR.
I've been wanting it since 7 years ago and I'm only getting it NOW.
Poor thing not?! I get a piano when I'm 16 when some of you already got it when you're 3.

But I'll get a damn chio one!

Then I paint pink words that says,

"MY PIANO IS CHIOER THAN YOURS :P"

Bet you're jealous!
HAH.

2008-02-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

Random pictures Mamanem took during band yesterday. (:

And yx trying to touch my precious sisters

School was alright today.
Nothing much happened.

Blog again tomorrow! Prolly!

My headaches are coming back. -.-

Anyway happy cny people! :D

2008-02-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

Guilty?
Is that the right word to use?

Maybe sad. Or deserving?

I don't know.

No matter how much I curse and swear at him,
telling Mim how much I wish he never existed,
a part of me somehow feel that life is no better on his side as to what I thought.

The words "You want to help me, and now you want to pull me down?" made me angry.
I felt protective, but I know I'd be as helpless as anything.

Maybe moral support is the right thing to do,
or perhaps something that's more commonly done amongst many, like "Mind your own business"?

Nothing is more true than he not fulfilling that basic responsibility.
But after all these years, when he "tried", he never does.

Mayb that's just how he is.
Like what Mim always say, family is too big a word for him.
While kicking off old habits is hard, adapting is no easier.

I just talked about appreciation.

Maybe that's what I'm lacking?

2008-02-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

Band ended late today, but practice was good! Happy. :D
The moment the brasses stood up,
the whole atmosphere of the bandroom just CHANGED like immediately.
Finally felt like how it did with the old room!

Anyway,
Classes today were good I guess. No scolding, and I was super attentive for no reason.
Starting of the day was so so, my headache was killing and is still continuing to do so till now.

Skip PE tomorrow! Waha. Cannot, my head really very pain.
Each time I stop blowing into the clarinet, the outburst of pain is like @!$%!@.
Especially during the warm ups today! ):

Pictures next time!

Have to study for physics test that's tomorrow.
Wish me luck ah!

Fyi, I have never, I repeat, NEVER passed physics in ANY tests or exams before.
So I'll pray for that miracle to happen tomorrow.

And alot of people having flu these days!
GET WELL SOON whoever you all are!

Unappreciative. I'm afraid of that word. Especially when it approaches the end of that long journey.
I hope for the least.
And that's to be remembered as someone who made a difference..

I really do hope I did..

2008-02-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

Oh hurray finally went shopping for CNY!
I'm so happy because I came back broke!
:D

Met alot of people outside today.
I was telling Caryn how I really dislike going to amkhub because I'd meet people I know there.
Haha. How true. Met so many people there when we went there twice today.
I think at least 6 okay.

When we were in bugis, we met um, my friend.
Even in far east, we bumped into more people.
What a small world!

So anyway, bought stuffs from Bugis street! (:

Arab street was more or less closed so we went to Haji Lane.
Many nice stuffs there for the rich because the things there were quite ex. (for us at least)

Today we were so crazed over Mondo shoes that we went from Far East all the way back to hub just to find those in our size.

And guess what, Hub also mei you leh.
): Caryn could have her ordered while mine.. I couldn't even wear the smallest size.
Which was a size 35 for your info.

Anyway, we practically combed the whole of hub before finally heading home.

Not bad you know! We shopped from 2 plus till 8 plus without resting or sitting down!
Not even when we were trying shoes on, except our very last visit to mondo in which we went home after that.

Cool ah.
Caryn's a shopping machine. Haha.

I went home, and passed by Charles and Keith.
Couldn't resist the temptation, so I went in. Haha.
Came out, Mphosis right infront, tempted, went in.
:D

I bought alot of things today!

Those consists of a dress, 2 bags, 2 shoes, 3 belts and lip gloss.
And now I'm happy. (:

Actually though I bought all these stuffs today which are supposed to cost me,
I didn't spend much cos they were all almost on offer.

3 belts for just $10!
Lip gloss for just $5.90 usual price $15++.
1 shoe and 1 bag from Charles and Keith, 10% off.
Mondo sandals 20% off.
Dress from Bugis village bargained!

Not bad loh,
The only thing that I bought in original price was the bag from Mphosis.
I won't buy next time! I'll just ask uncle hensley to give. Hah.

But okay lah today,
at least I save while I spend (????)
Lame.

Okay enough said already,
Gotta go pack my bag before going to sleep.

Byebye! :D

2008-02-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 9++ today, forcing myself out from bed, literally.
Slept at 12 plus yesterday can, I kept trying to keep myself awake in band today.
Met Mamanem in J8 before going for band.

Had combined and Mr Desouza took us woodwinds.
Simple debrief and we could go already.

I had to cab all the way down to Granny's for Reunion meal.
And it's quite stupid because they had the meal in the afternoon while I was at band,
and when I reached there my uncles and cousins had already left.

So I had dinner with bro, granny and grandaunt instead.
Watched tv, slacked around abit before going back.

Haven't posted pictures for very long alr.
So here's one that I took in granny, my big face.

Today, Granny's home brought back memories of great grandma when she was still around.
I remember how she'd always be sitting/sleeping on the queen sized bed in the master room.
Grandaunt used to sleep side by side with her,
making sure she's alright throughout the night.

Great granny, whom I called Ah-pak, spelled for pronounciation purpose, was the one who took great care of me when I was still young.

She'd bring me to school which was then in Jurong (Teban Garden)
And be the one who fed me my meals and all.

She's such a great soul, just thinking of her makes me miss the old times badly.
Mim used to say that ah-pak was "a small woman with a big heart".

She lost her eye sight when she was 85 or so.
Although I can't really remember her when she was still able to do simple chores herself,
I do remember how she'd always take out her wallet and feel for a $2 or $5 to give my bro and I.

I used to be really afraid of her because she spoke cantonese which I couldn't understand.
I realised that for her to be able to hear my voice, was the closest she could get.
Perhaps it has been so long since she remembered my face, she can only picture faint memories in her mind.

The day when we all rushed down to the hospital, when I was in p4, she had left, she was 92 then.
I didn't have a chance to bid goodbye.
She slept with a peaceful look, assuring us that she was in a place far better than home.

Come to think of it, I'd still miss her from time to time.
A picture of her carrying my brother when he was still a toddler slipped out of an album yesterday.
Mim was sitting beside great granny who wore a pretty smile.

Today, Granny talked about the past.
I guess that's what all that we do have left to fall back on, at least something for us to cherish.

In case you thought why I continued such a long post about great granny all of a sudden,
I took the picture of myself in the toilet that was supposedly hers then.
Lol, I'm not trying to freak anyone out, but I was just finding tissue to blow my nose then lah.

And I finally realise that the bathtub she used to bathe in has been taken up by baskets of barang barang replacing her.

I slept over at granny one day years ago, on the same spot that she used to sleep side by side with grand aunt.

I think to suddenly have that empty space beside you after years isn't that easy a thing to get through with.
Especially when that person has been your mom.

Life is so vulnerable, isn't it.

2008-02-02T10:25:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not blogging yesterday,
I was busy packing my room while fighting the life and death war with my nose.

I ate my med which made me drowsy and went to bed.

Oh ho! The kind docs gave me 2 days mc,
At least it'll be more convincing to Ponytail that I'm unfit for school.
Cos she smsed me yesterday! Asking me how am I and all.
So I gave her a very straight answer, I am Fine Thank You very much I will pass you my mc on monday.

Yoon suan came to visit!
(:

Was on the phone with several people that night,
And not to mention hopping mad at something.
I was so angry lah. But at least I managed to stay cool.

I was so sleepy by the time I went to bed I didn't think much about anything else.

Have to study tonight!
Hopefully. There's physics test next week and I don't wanna fail. ):
Hopefully bio test can pass! Which I highly doubt so.
The things I studied just didn't get into my head.

Oh wells.

I think it's so ridiculous, you are being so surreptitious.

2008-01-31T23:43:00.000+08:00

Changed skin!
I still like Eclair skins. (:

Ohyeah, it's 11.45pm now, and I just hung up with baby.
I was busy complaining about the brilliant day spent with my brilliant class and my so called brilliant teacher.

Oh yay I love 4/4! (:

Mummy keep pushing me to see the docs.
Walau, will really waste my kaching $$ one leh.

I have to go school tomorrow.
I will chant that to sleep tonight.

Before that I have to finish up my english file which I conviniently forgot about.
Lols.

Alright,
no photos.

This weekend!
Shopping with Caryn and Xin Lin. Teehee.
I'm so happy!

2 full periods of geog tomorrow!
Gotta face Maha Letchmi no. 2, Habibbah Ismail!

Goodluck Pupeng!
And cheer up 4/4, rock that yellow tee.

(:

2008-01-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

I just woke up, with a terrible blocknose.
Okay, I won't go rambling on about my health again,
I probably fall sick 100 times a year and make it seem like I had it all planned out.

Mrs Veda will think so at least.
If I don't go school tomorrow,
Mrs Veda confirm,"WHERE'S YOUR MC?! SICK WHERE?! WHY SICK?!"

Talking about her, ehem, today was ultra cool.
I love 4/4 to the max can.

We were gonna recieve our class tee today (my one and only one mind u)
So we all wanted to wear it for CIP.
But we were ehem, ridiculously BANNED from wearing it.

Yah lor, quite funny ah, our own shirt, we paid ourselves, we are banned from wearing it.

Tell me which idiot will take that lying down?
No one right?!

Obviously the class were shooting and shooting that woman down,
because firstly,

We didn't bring PE.
We don't see what's wrong with the shirt.

Okay, up till this point,
maybe some of you don't know what's so wrong with our shirt.

Just because that 6 words on it caused that lady to get soo upset over it.
"Our class is better than yours :P"

Wah,
Is this 6 words intentionally targeted to any particular class?
NO RIGHT?!

And in the first damn place, that woman didn't even say about any shit approval form before ruishan sent it for printing.

Who didn't know we were already gonna get the shirt printed?
Hello everyone started paying up already,
as a form teacher you don't even know how to take up your own responsibility to even TELL that there's approval we have to wait for?

So now it's our fault that you didn't even tell us in the first place?

Wah, funny ah.
Just because you're a few years older you have all rights to be unreasonable?
Then we have all rights to childishly retaliate lah since we're younger?
No right? THEN?!

Our responsibility in this matter was to get the job done,
what about your responsibility?
Sit there shake leg and tie your ponytail ah?
At least keep them informed about the rule for approval of shirts right?
Since you didn't, isn't that a mistake on your part?

Now we have to apologise for your mistake?
Want me to cut off you ponytail is it?

Obviously the class didn't listen lah.
Who would want to climb and carry newspapers in full school uniform?
RIDICULOUS RIGHT.

You try lah! I doubt you can even walk to jubilee in full school u.
Is letting us wear a shirt gonna kill your ponytail?
If it isn't then why can't you put yourselves in our shoes and understand that we NEED to get changed.

To this point of time,
it's NEED ok. I won't use want, although that's really the case, but I don't care.
I really hate her ponytail.

We were ridiculously sweating in that thick inhumanely made uniform.
I felt worse than a slave wearing that green outfit.
Not that there's anything wrong with it,
besides the colour and material and everything else,
I really love our form teacher for allowing us to carry newspapers in full school u.

She was so understanding.
Really, I'm not kidding.
Don't believe?
Ask her ponytail.

I felt like I could die any moment then.
My head spinned and my nose ran.
So cool huh.
And I was still in that inhumanely made uniform.

All the way till I went back to school.

We all knew that the huge issue will blow things up,
just like in our class drama.

I really don't understand how come we have teachers who are so unsupportive of our ideas.
Just because you have had a longer life doesn't mean you know more.
Maybe you do, but you don't realise that things that happen 20 years ago no longer apply to our current society.
You're like a lagging time machine.

At first it was class drama,
when nearly the whole class left earlier to rehearse.
If it wasn't for our good intentions,
you think we really wanted to leave earlier that badly?

CLASS drama. I shall emphasize the world CLASS in your big face.
If you're gonna release like 10 people or so for the drama,
I suggest you go jump off the building or something.

If we didn't need everyone for that drama,
it wouldn't be called a CLASS drama anymore.

Because of that, we all had demerit points?
We turned out winners, and yet all we got were some 60 cents or so icecream from you?
When other classes celebrated on merely the COMPLETION of their drama?
And what did they get? PIZZAS. CAKES.

We're from a class with 2 form teachers,
and we couldn't recieve more than what single form classes have.
That's really fair for us.

Now it's some shirt that you played no part in helping make it.
Not that we have, but we did the most basic thing we could.
And that is paying for our shirt, and supporting what we have.
You did none, except one thing, complain.

Screamed at us in the foyer, infront of all the classes.
Whose face are you throwing? Your own.
You must really feel terrible for having a class that hates you this much.
That really shows how successful you have been as a form teacher.

If I had a class like 4/4,
I'd be proud of them.

What Clinton said today was so true,
"Sometimes the grass is greener on the other side."

Just our luck that we have a teacher like u.

2008-01-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

Walau, I really hate my house can.
I can't even turn off the aircon when I want to.

If I turn it off,
I'll have to open the door, and I'll inhale all the smoke outside, so I will die.
If I close the door, there won't be enough oxygen through my window,
so I will suffocate and die.

If I leave my aircon on,
I won't die, but I will fall sick.

So how?
Want me to die or be sick?

I know half of you out there are laughing and wishing I will die.
HAHA. I laugh back at you.

I wont die.
Awww.

2008-01-30T21:18:00.000+08:00

I promised Baby I won't use the computer.
Sorry, I cannot resist. ):

And besides, chemistry is killing my already rapidly-depleting brain cells.
I had to blog about what happened today,
which is CIP that drained at least half of me.

I don't know why God decided to make this day such a suay one.

After climbing uncountable flights of stairs in amk, desperately looking for unwanted items,
I walked to the bus stop feeling that I might just collapse and die anytime.

After the bus took years to come, I settled down in a seat.
I thought I was pretty lucky already as it was during the peak hours when the bus was supposed to be packed.

So I happily took out my mp3 and thought of what I can do for sectionals tmr.
So happy right? Like everything nicely planned out and all.
Happily took out my hp and smsed the section saying there's sectionals tomorrow.

I took such a long time to type that message,
because I was hopelessly trying to fit whatever that I wanna say into a 1 msg long sms.
I didn't want to sms 2 msg long smses to the section,
cos that would really not be of any help to my already high hp bill.

So I typed, erased, typed erased, with music playing in my ears.
Then after much effort, I finally sent it out, and happily relaxed.
Relax ah. Ya Funny.

I realised I missed my stop, and I was like in Braddell?
WALAU. I was so shocked cos I didn't realise the sudden decrease in passengers.
(Normally most of them would alight at J8)

In the end,
I walked all the way home.

It took me a full 20 minutes (approximately)
Which isn't really long, cos I take like 10 minutes to walk home from J8,
But imagine after climbing 2 whole hdb blocks carrying stupid newspapers,
and I still have to walk another 20 minutes home!
TIRING OR NOT?!

I know whatever that I've said is just totally pointless,
and it is without doubt, my own mistake.

BUT I DON'T CARE.
I wanna show my discontentment as and when I like,
Because I at least deserve a good rest after such a satisfying day of "helping the needy" (ah funny)

Why God so unfair huh?!
I was so pissed I lost my appetite, went to NTUC to buy my stuff which I couldn't find in the end,
come back bathing in a pitch black toilet cos my light was spoiled,
and I sat at my table with weird chem equations staring at my face.

I hate today.

I used 2 packets of tissue while waiting for yx to finish with her class.
Which was like, probably 10 to 15 minutes long.

My nose was running like a tap because of all the dust from the newspaper,
and now my head's like, whatever.

I'm eating panadol and going to sleep.

Screw chem test.
):
As much as I don't want to fail, my body don't wanna study.

Wah,
chem test tomorrow, assembly presentation,

Good luck to me.

2008-01-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

Super sleepy today!
I think I'll be sleeping even earlier today.

Won't be studying for chem le,
I mean for today, cos I'm gonna pack my room.

Chem's just gonna die anyway.
):

Study tomorrow.

Photos!

During lower sec assembly.
Taken at the backstage toilet before we did our india presentation. :D

More with Zixiang. (:

Okay go pack my room already before chinese new year.
Byebye.

2008-01-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

Bio Test tomorrow!

Today was crazy. We had 3 tests, and I nearly died.
Chinese was -.-", maths was -.-"" and geog was -_-

Off to study alr!
So guai, I know.

And my sorethroat is killing me.
Very painful ):

And there's this super annoying person who keeps calling and calling.
"Who is this?" Super irritating can. Keep asking and asking when he's the one who called.
-.-"

I'm so fat.
Random.

Okay, go study alr/
byeye

2008-01-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

You don't know how it makes me feel.
You don't even know how it is like to be here.
Go and die.

-.-

Anyway,
I missed a few days of blogging because I had, ehem, no time.
I felt like a living dead zombie on Friday due to lack of sleep.
And I got irritated by someone the night before as well, as usual.

On a happier note, Mummy was back on Friday night! :D
We were having our sort of usual chit chat session opp school after band.
Mummy came to fetch and she was like always, so busy with everything.

Went to buy shoes for herself and her friend,
Rushed to money changer,
then to atm to deposit money,
then to her place to meet someone,
then to dinner (cos I haven't eaten the whole day, I was dying),
then to pass my maid something,
then went back to bathe,
and then to 7 eleven to pay her bills,
then back home when we finally settled down and watched tv.

By then it was already like, close to midnight.
I watched till I fell asleep.

Today morning was kind of rushed as well.
Tsk. All the time.
Mummy dropped me at amk hub before she went off.

Met section for lunch before band.
(:
Qianyi's hamster is totally freaky and well, cute.
She brings it everywhere and it sorts of scares me.
Apparently I'm not so good with animals considering the fact that all 9 of my hamsters died under my care.

Okay, I just realised that's quite bad.
But I didn't kill it intentionally, they just died. I didn't do anything.
Do you believe me?

Do you?

Random,
I hate geog lessons.
I can't stand Mrs Ismail's lessons because they're utterly useless.
You go in with an empty mind and come out with an angry one.

That day, she just spent the WHOLE recess talking to me, about?
Nothing.

I really didn't get a single anus she said can?
I felt so anal-ied by her talk that I pretended to be listening when I'm not.

-.-

Random again,
It was Yoon Suan's Bday on Thursday!
Yunxuan fyi.

So, just to make you happy (for once),
And also to compensate with me forgetting it was your birthday till someone kept chanting that it was your birthday in the parade square that day,
(I swear I remembered the night before.)

Happy Birthday 8 Meals A Day Girl!
(You should thank me for creating that trademark for you)

You're 16 and old with wrinkles already!
So please stop being an irritating pie. (:
And to pull down your ego abit,

YOU ARE THE OLDEST GIRL IN CLASS ALREADY.
Wahaha, I'm so happy to be around you because you make me feel young and pretty.
Haha!

I'm not kidding.
You know I'm not.
Haha.
:D

So to cheer her dull and sad life up abit,
Amanda (mandamandamandamanda) and I decided to be nice and accompany her to swensense for lunch.

Amanda's so, funny?
It's so hard to describe her cos funny isn't the right word since you haven't seen that serious side of her yet,
Not that I have, not really, maybe, but,
I don't know sia!

She digged out the whipped cream on her icecream and put it in tissue paper,
cos she didn't want to eat it.
So, lol.

Yx and I kept teasing, and teasing, and teasing.
Haha. She's so funny.

I still remember swensense light. LOL.
That one is classic.

Anyway,
Sorry for such a long winded and empty post about my boring life without pictures,
cos I haven't been taking any (apparently -.-)

Shall go pack my room cos it's in such a mess.
And there's 2 tests on Monday!

Gotta go study. ):

Buhbye.

[2008 will be such a great year!]
Hah!

Like real -.-

2008-01-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

I promised photos today, and here are they. (:
Actually they're those that we took yesterday,
but I was too lazy to upload them.

blog more tmr!

2008-01-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

Today's periods were kind of shiok because nearly the whole day was slacked periods.

We started off with eng compo test, which I totally love.
Not that I will score sky high marks that hits the ceiling (although I'd love to),
but I love to write ugly compositions.
I think compo tests are a total waste of time and I love it! (:

Miss Karim didn't come today due to some, I don't know what.
Frankly I was really upset because I've been enjoying her lessons so so much.
I guess english lessons would be such a joy from now onwards,
which is good! Because crap teachers have affected my interest in that subject.
That one subject I count so much on to pull my pathetic chinese grades up.

For the past few years my attempt of saving my chinese has failed, miserably.
Countless of times baby tried to teach me in class,
all I give is a blank stare.
Cos I really don't understand those strokes and dots everywhere. ):

But somehow, amazingly, I love chinese.
Although I suck at it, and don't understand a single thing about it!
I love that language. Bu zhi dao why leh.

Say I'm crazy, I'm after all chinese, so I love it.
Sort of, love it.

I'd love it more if I could read a full sentence in a compre, any, full sentence.
I'll telling you I can't. It's that serious.)

Alright, I was just saying about our slacked periods, was I?
As I was saying, first two periods were wasted on compo test.

With the next two on PE, which Xin Lin and I agreed on to skip the day before.
So as usual, we skipped. Hah.

I feel guilty cos I think PE will help me lose some extra weight I've been carrying all these while,
I'll wake up early on weekends again to jog, for compensation. (

Then was recess, spent on staring at rubik's cubes again.
And next two on chem which was ssrp cos Miss Tay was not feeling well. (If I'm not wrong.)
I miss her lessons too! I just hope I understood chem more. ):

And the last two was on maths.
Which was a horror, as usual.
Today's lesson was less horrifying. Mdm Chong screamed for a full half an hour.
Then she toned down, and we all carried on with life.

I did eng compre during Achievers today, guai, I know.
Till yx came with this Laammee matter that, I choose to be ignorant to. (finally)
Lame shit lor, after so many years she still chooses to hold grudges.
I don't deal with childish people who speaks on others behalf and thinks they're right all the time.

I mean I do think I'm right most of the time too,
but I don't speak on other's behalf. That's ridiculous.
Are you a mind reader? Are you some expert in the psychological field?
If you are, please stop wasting your time trying to make me angry or any of that sort.
Go somewhere else to spout your nonsensical shit.
Like probably the garbage collection centre that your house resembles.
Oops, did I just say that?

You're a lamer who I'm wasting my time blogging about right now,
and I don't care, because I wish to say how dissatisfied I am with you,
some one whom, for the past years, I'm not even close to.
You're probably reading this and not knowing I'm talking about you,
which is expected.
Because you never do. Since you think you're right, all the time.

So enough of you trying ways and means to make me upset already,
today chem lesson was ssrp, as I've said.
Thus, we headed to the toilet to, camwhore. Heh. More of Caryn and my idea.
Melissa and Xin Lin were being dragged along. Haha.
Taken with Caryn and Pupeng's ultra 5 mega pix phones
I love my phone, at last.

upload more tmr! :D

2008-01-21T21:37:00.001+08:00

It's being that close, but strangers by any means.
Like so much else, we fall somewhere in the middle.

Sometimes I get confused.
Maybe time doesn't mean anything,
in a matter of that at least.
I'm sometimes caught in this dilemma,
to follow what's right in the eye of others, or mine solely?.

I wouldn't exactly say it's right,
but is it wrong to finally realise what's best for you?

I guess sometimes in life, when people change, or when you see the different side of others,
you finally realise that you didn't really know the person you thought you did.

Maybe I didn't, from the start.
Perhaps it's just because of that voice that's speaking in me, which keeps me holding till now.

Undeniably, it'll be a bad "ever after",
but to see into it quicker is better to drag and leave the false hope hanging.

At least for what I think.

I don't wanna stir up another misunderstanding, or whatever you call it.

At least, to know how I truly feel, won't be that difficult a task.

2008-01-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

I GOT BACK MY PHONE!

I know that's a little too much to get excited for,
but do you know how much I missed that damn phone or not?!
When I held it in my soft warm arms, I couldn't recognise it anymore. ):
It felt like just another foreign object.. *sniffs

Okay enough of that exaggeration,
I'm finally back home feeling just a little better as compared to yesterday.
Thanks to that splitting headache which lasted for DAYS,
DAYS hor, not minutes or seconds arh aunties and uncles,
DAYS.

I really don't know how the headache stayed for so long,
since I wasn't suffering from fever or any of that sort.
It got really bad this morning I could have taken the chance of hitting my head on the wall hoping it would get better.

But then again I'd probably be hurt and start bleeding.
Then ambulance will come with my bleeding forehead,
and I'll be lying side by side with brandon in the hospital (I hope he's okay).

I saw this hilarious article in the IN paper today during morning assembly.
This crazy retard actually glued his hand to his bed just because he refused to go to school.

Ridiculous enough or not?!
Glue your hand to the bed?
Why don't you just jump off the building to disfunction your whole body,
then don't have to go school for life?

His mom tried all ways and means to "unglue" that pathetic arm.
After using nail polish remover blabla, she finally called the ambulance.
And all the people in their scary uniform came,
AND THIS IS THE FUNNIEST PART.

They managed to unglue him, just in time for school.

I really wonder what will happen if they can't unglue him.
Cut off his hand?
Cut a piece of the bed frame which will be stucked with him for life?
Or leave him there to do all his shit before he finally die?

I hate ridiculous kids who do such stuffs,
ehem, especially people who fake an mc to skip school.
-whistles away...
(:

Anyway,
to come back to my day today,
which I know that's what you kaypoh's are here for.

We sounded totally horrible in band today.
It was no where near how we used to sound alright?
Especially the part where the clarinets had to run all the crazy notes,
we just did it with crotchet to 130 and they could lor!
I was so happy, but everyone just stoned during full band, including myself. ):

Fantasy sucked so bad,
Mr Tan wanted to take it off our repetoire.
Thank goodness he didn't. Cos I'm pretty sure our Phantom won't sound any where better.

Oh man.
I have crap Achievers tomorrow, including Junior Band.

Okay,
I'm off to ehem,
study. (Like you would even believe)

And people,
I'm no longer vulgar. (For today, at least)

That's one step nearer to fulfilling my new year resolution!
AND YOU KNOW I LOST 2 KG?!

Hehehe.
I'll lose 2 more!

Alright.

Buhbye baybehs.

P.S: I kind of remember I promised photos, SOON.
I feel my memory improving. (: Just for this moment.

P.P.S:
I BOUGHT THAT DAMN RUBIK'S CUBE AND IT'S SO NOT SMOOTH.
Wasted my $10.95 -.-
Anyway, baby taught me how to solve! :D
I'm so happy.

2008-01-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

Oh hurraayy!

Slutty Nokia called to say my phone is ready for collection!
Thanks for taking 2 slutty weeks to repair it!

It's 3 weeks in fact.
Because I went on a week end to bring it over for repair,
they only called me the next week's tuesday,
which is already over 1 week,
so I only went on the next week end, which makes it 2 weeks already,
and they only called today! Which is the 3rd week.

3 weeks of picture-less posts!
))):

I STUDIED BIO YESTERDAY.
Who can believe?! I studied a little, but I did still, afterall, studied.

:D I'm so proud of myself.

But anyway,

I'm gonna go pack up my messy room by tonight,
new year's coming! And everything's just piling up everywhere in my room.

Go collect phoneee and buy Rubik's cube tomorrow!
:D

Byebye~ Expect pictures tomorrow,
if darling wants to take with me, that is.
(I bet he won't with his current hair)

2008-01-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

Whatever can, being so anal for what.

It's not like the first day I'm in band right,
you obviously know the commitment required.

So stop being so anal about everything.

You're irritating. -.-"

2008-01-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

I missss long hair.
I really wonder when will I ever ever get that hair length ever again.
Thinking of going extentions again? LOL.
I'm just wasting money here and there and everywhere and I don't care.

Band was so so today,
had full band on Phantom Fantasy and Postcards without sec 3s.
Sounded so funny at first,
like small little sounds here and there randomly filling in the silence.

Anyway,
School was boring today.
And I really wanna buy a Rubik's cube.
):

I'm so bored I will die.

Recently, studying SORT OF, I shall emphasize, SORT OF ah, interest me.
I have been somewhat listening,
hopefully Bio test I'd score!

:D

As usual,
I'm craving for shopping.

I haven't bought my new year clothes can?!
And he hasn't been giving me my allowance ever since school started or even weeks before that.

Whatever lor,
Irritating pweese.

Today Mr Tan announced that our New York plans are screwed.
No Hotel, No Tickets, No longer staying in Times Square.
Seriously I was upset since we were all looking forward to staying in the heart of New York,
that would be really cool, but who knows the funds will get stucked now.
D:

I guess everyone's trying.
Too hard maybe. Seeing stressed up excos, and people being upset here and there.
Please don't cry leh members,
I cry easily when I see people cry, I dono why also. Lolss.

The performance is just 2 months away,
and we're not prepared.
Looking at the way Mr Tan said it today, adds more pressure, and sadness I guess.
Don't even know if things will work out.

Was supposed to have a meeting to pretty late,
but it sort of upset some parents so we had to cancel it.
Instead we went opp for talk, or meeting, or whatever. Dono lah.

Hopefully things will work out!

Okay,
I'll study if I have the mood.

Byebye~

2008-01-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

School was okay today,
cos I was paying attention in Bio!
Sort of. Okay not really.
But I did notes and all.

Thought of many many things in class today,
I dono why, just sort of came to my mind,
With Mrs Veda's voice playing at the back of my head.

I stoned for quite a while,
till she shook me up from my dreamland with,"Pupeng, stop daydreaming. -stares"
I jumped with a shock (literally) before realising I'm back in class on a normal school day again.

After school,
went for lunch at Pastamania J8 with Caryn, Xin Lin and Melissa.
Mixed up all the left over food,
super sick okay Melissa. Lols!

After which, Xin Lin and Melissa headed back home,
while Caryn and I headed to Bugis for some shopping.

SHOPPING.

After so longgg!
I was so desperate loh.
I cancelled all my online buys cos I thought I should save up for a day when I can really spree for a day somewhere.

We went Bugis street, with Caryn going crazy over boyfriend tees.
Really okay,

"Where to buy boyfriend tee?"
"Where is that shop in Marina that sold boyfriend tee?"
"That girl's wearing boyfriend tee!"
"Oh my god that shop sells boyfriend tee!"
"Come lets go downstairs to see if others got sell boyfriend tees."
"Maybe we should ask that girl where she bought her boyfriend tee."
"Alot people are looking for boyfriend tee."
"I have been looking everywhere for boyfriend tee."

And that's not all,
we were searching how to get to Arab street cos we thought we could spree there next week,
Wah, that girl blurted out,"Does that mean we won't find any boyfriend tee?"

Ah, correction.

"Does that mean we won't find Arab street?"

So crazy can her obsession! Lols!

After we found out that Arab street was just, like, a street away, or whatever,
we headed back home.
Wah very tired..

Now I'm so full I feel like binging all the food out from my stomach.

Okay,
I will sleep earlier today,
Maybe, Probably.
Whatever, I bought stuffs today! Happy.

Byebye~

2008-01-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

Martina Mcbride - Concrete Angel

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

2008-01-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

Emo emo, go away.

Anw,
We had Sls with ww master meeting today,
about problems we face and so on.

Didn't have time to finish all of us, as usual,
and I had to rush off to collect stuffs.

It was more of like a get together session lor,
we ehem, digressed, so much so that we took 2 hours plus plus for the whole thing,
and we were barely halfway through. Haha.

Laughed quite a bit, had quite a bit of fun actually lol, talking and stuffs.
I guess everyone's feeling that tension as March is approaching so quickly.
Many are getting the stress I guess.
I hope things will go smoothly and well for the next few months.
And end off our band life with Esplanade, with a bang.
(:

I'm starting to think alot these few days.
I don't know why, and I guess I wanna make a change.
I don't care anymore, I'd be less sensitive, and do what I deem is right.
Maybe it has been way too long,
Aiyah I really don't know.

I dream of things that were too perfect,
waking up just to find myself lying face to face with reality,
that such things just don't exist.

Maybe because it has been part of my life for quite some time,
long enough to not forget and not feel that emptiness, despite the amount of sadness it brings.

To contradict myself,
perhaps it'll one day just float away like how the others did.
I hate life so much.

If only Mim could be here..
She'd make things seem alright.

She always does.

2008-01-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

We played games with the sec ones today during band
and was funnnnnnnnnn
Hahah.

Super dumb can?! I totally felt like how I did 3 years back when I was on my first day in band.
I guess that day marked a different path I took in life,
and it's ending soon! Just in a few more months.

We all played ice breakers with the sec ones,
and got to know some of them as well. (:

Was great cos I guess it has been ages since the band room was this lively.
I guess it's what always happens when new juniors join in.
And Weilin's already feeling the seniority! (if there's such a word)
Bought sweets for the sec ones, so sweet. Hahah. (I think we all took it in the end LOL)

Talked to Yuqing today too.
And girl, I really hope you're feeling better now!
Whatever it is, don't be afraid to be confident alright?
And MUST tell me anything okay. (: I'm not that fierce and unfriendly haha.

Talked talked talked, till band room was about to close.
:D
Then Shi Zheng and I went over opp sch to talk with some other members.
Super funny lah, talked about ghost blabla, American Pie haha.
Justin was just, cold. Lol. His cold jokes are legend seriously.

Went home at 8 plus.
I'm feeling lazy again.

I'm starting to think about my band days since a sec one.
It has been a long way, most definitely.
Sense of achievement and satisfaction, that we're already stepping down!
And also sadness I guess.

No matter how much we complain for it's long practices,
how ridiculous people can get,
how over board they go with the scoldings,
I guess it'll be a period of time where I'll never forget.

I'll never forget how ChengSong told me once that I can "never make it" (Lol)
I'll never forget how we started off as Brando's Angels
And how I cried and jumped upon hearing that word "Gold With Honours"

It's all memories never to be replaced,
so super cliched, but whatever losers, if you don't get my point, you never will.
So yeah. Haha.

I'll even cry again if you ever play back that moment in the conference hall,
this time I'll scream even louder and jump even higher. Lol.
Sometimes, after complaining so much, I want it all back.

I guess everyone would.

Maybe without all these hardships, the memories would have meant lesser.
I'm glad, I really am.

It's so wierd how everyone would complain how much band suck,
how much they hate it and all.

But still flow tears on the day of graduation.
Like how I did, when the seniors left on POP.

I looked totally like, shit can.
I still remember I kept telling Cheryl how I "cannot handle such a big section alone"
I guess that was the time I truly felt lost and lonely all of a sudden
Like this whole responsibility has just been thrown to you out of nowhere
We wouldn't expect it to be this much probably.

Today I stared at the sec ones and realised that innocence and abit of u know,
like all sec ones, sweet childishness inside them.
Then I started to see how much all of us has grown from such an innocent stage,
to where we are right now.

Who made the most change?
Laura Choo lah then? LOL.

I was never truly this happy being with everyone in band.

I love my section ah,
anyone bully, I pump you.
hahaha. :D I'm kidding.

And anw,
Today's the 15th.
Happy 1 year 2 months my darlingggggg. :D

Lovelove

2008-01-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored I will die.
I love school sometimes.

I don't want to bring up flashes of the past,
it doesn't help, not one bit.

Slept over at Phua's yesterday with Nijune! :D
Did video with publicity group, ate dinner with both of them,
and finished up the rest of the video at night!

Nijune taught me 5 minutes of Maths before I officially gave up and went to bathe.
Haha. I'm such a loser.

Sleeping with Phua is dangerous alright,
she crazily jumps onto you when the room is dark.
We had............

:D

FUN.
LOL.

What you thinking eh?!

And that crazy bitch know how to solve the rubik's cube can!
Mad ass. Haha.

Woke up at 6.10am in the morning, bathed, and her mummy sent us to sch.
School was alright for the day,
cos I was paying attention in class. :D Sort of..

Okay, sleeping alr,
super early I know

No choice, Baby will nag ):
Righttttt? :D

Night night people.

2008-01-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

I feel like a complete loser.
Ok not completely, but at least half of me do.

I really think I should slap myself,
because Math test seemed so easy today and yet I know I won't score because,
I refuse to study.

I REFUSE!
It's getting crazy, but yes.

Sometimes I really hope that someone would secretly smash my com,
because if that happens, studying would be my next option since I really don't like watching tv.
(Very wierd, but yes, I hate watching tv.)

Band was alright today,
Mr De Souza, however, only put 3 of the 6 chosen probational leaders on probation.
That's sad. For me at least. I was hoping... Alright nevermind. (:

But never the less, Congratulations to Shu E, Shi Zheng and Chong Hui.
:D

Okay, went popular, and hurray! Geography and SS are out of stock.
Don't blame me if I don't have my books. :P Dumb Ismail -.-
But hey, I actually did her lame shit during lesson today alright,
whatever Poem, sounded like lit class to me..

Sec ones coming in tmr!
I'm so happy the Sec 3s are taking over. Seriously. Lol.

I was queuing up in Popular today,
when I saw this random book placed in the middle of no where
It's titled "Just Listen", and I bought it.
Kind of on impulse, but I don't care, I'm gonna read it.

No pictures again!

F.....
Ok new year resolution. NO VULGARITIES.

Bloody Nokia!
Better return me my phone or I'll burn u down.

I'm sleeping early today,
I WANNA FEEL FRESH TOMORROW.
Lame.

Byebye~

2008-01-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

I am so lazy.

I am supposed to go to church before heading to Phua's
But I refuse to get my fat ass off the chair.

I refuse to study.

I refuse to sleep.

I refuse to make things better.

I won't, till God decides to give me an answer.
It's so funny,
how you were the one who brought me so close to Him,
and yet at the same time, tear us apart.

Lame.

Similannjiao

I had to pay New York's downpayment all by myself.
I'm broke now.

I need to shop,
I need to get things off.

I hate you face.
Haha.

Making things difficult.

I don't care. (:

How come God will take people away from me one by one.
Slowly and slowly.

Whatever.
I want to sleep.

I'm going to Phua's now.
This is so random.

I feel like scolding.

Jii buaii lorrhx`
wHatt ish diSs cannn?
Yoo` sUppr actt 0kiex~

It feels good sometimes, to be another person.
I'm becoming like one.

Hahah.

-.-

2008-01-13T14:12:00.001+08:00

I cannot find a suitable song for my blog.
Or maybe one to describe how I feel, at least.

I'm changing the song again!
I don't care, I'll keep doing it till I find a suitable one.

Things are getting wierder and wierder.
God must be playing a trick on me.
I'd be glad to hear that it's all a game.
Because everything seems unreal now.

Whatever.
You readers don't get it again.

I'm changing my skin soon.

I'm doing so many irrelavent stuffs, I'm gonna fail maths test tomorrow.

I hate studying.

Give it a moment would you?

2008-01-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

I hate the net at night.
It's so effing slow I could have killed 10 cows already while waiting for the page to load.

-.-

I'm feeling emo now.
Wooo.

This will be a junk post,
so don't bother to read if you are precious with your time.
Because if you do, you prolly won't understand a word I'm about to say.

So,
byebye in advance.

-

I think things have been mundane.
I think that pretty soon, all the truth will pop out like popcorn. Lame.

I also think that,
I am starting to hate you more and more.

I don't know,
maybe I'm lying.
Maybe I'm not.
It all depends on whether for the next few days or weeks,
Something funny starts to happen again.

I think it's so funny how things starts to turn for the worse,
as we stare at the situation dumbly and not knowing what direction are we heading to.

I don't know if I answered her question correctly or not.
But I guess my answer is a yes.

I don't want that day to come.
When I'd be thinking of what to do
You prolly know I won't be free anyway,

but I guessed I did made a promise to you that,
this year's would be better.

At least I'd try.

2008-01-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

I hate Nokia!

4 days ago some ass called and told me my precious is ready for collection
So I left today at 12.30 to finally meet my precious.

FIRSTLY,
the waiting time was so bloody long.

and secondly,
By 2 it was my turn,
and I went to the counter just to know that my phone "Isn't Ready Yet"

Wah funny ah

They assured us that the phone will be ready half an hour later
The lady at the counter apologised,
Like as if her sorries can buy me back the time they wasted.

Took pity on the poor worker, baby and I went to eat first.
Just as we were making our way back after that satisfying meal,
some joker from Nokia called and said we had to wait one more week.

One more week.

Want me to slap you face is it?

ONE MORE WEEK

just for you to change my LCD screen.
Thanks ah.

Wasted my money to train all the way down,
wasted my time to go all the way down.

And to add oil to fire,
Daddy so totally pissed me off.

called when I was quite pissed with the waiting time already.
told me to buy coffee mix for him cos he wanted to drink coffee,
asked me what time I was coming back cos he want to drink now.

WAH FUNNY AH DARLING.
You want to drink now, expect me to run from suntec all the way back to bishan to get u some what, coffee mix?

You body will decompose if you don't drink for one day is it?
Cannot exclude cream in your coffee for one day?

At first I recieve some ridiculous call from you, in the middle of band prac,
just to hear you say,"Come back to sweep the floor, mop the floor, wash and iron the clothes."

So I'm now your domestic worker huh.
What's with that "talk" about you being all so disciplined in your childhood?
What's the use of talking so much when you don't show you were once that disciplined?

Might as well ask me to believe that Hitler saved lives when he was young.
-.-

Anyway,
I was pissed to the maximum.

How am I supposed to go collect it next week?
They think school girls like me very free everyday go suntec par toh is it?

So now because of their one stupid mistake,
I have to pay money and go down again la?

Bloody hell.

After that, met up with Dan Hui and Hazmei to catch St Pat's POP.

Was raining, so the parade was held in the hall,
sadly the DM didn't throw the mace.
He totally looked like as if he was gonna use it as a weapon to hit the audience lah,
he was soo near.

The while thing took around 2 hours,
which actually is pretty short to me cos they actually gave out awards to everyone single member I guess.

At least to those who went up in rank I think.

Bused home by 55, took freaking long.
Had a bad bus experience.
So much for long peaceful bus rides. -.-"

I slept in train, slept in bus.
I felt like a walking zombie.

Alright.
Not in that happy mood to blog right now.

I will burn Suntec down if Nokia doesn't get my phone ready by next week.

Bye bye.

2008-01-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Cristina Aguilera - I Turn To You

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way.
And when I'm scared losing ground;
When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around.

And when I'm down you're there; pushing me to the top.
You're always there; giving me all you've got.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you.

When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything,
'Cause your love is so amazing; 'cause your love inspires me.

And when I need a friend, you're always on my side;
Giving me faith that gets me through the night.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;

For everything that's true,
I turn to you.

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain;
For truth that will never change;
For someone to lean on;
for a heart I can rely on through anything;
For that one who I can run to....
I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true...

For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you...

Sometimes I want to go back,
Sometimes I think it's better things stay this way.

2008-01-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

School has been, I don't know, wierd?
About everything and anything. I guess it's all too much to adapt to for everyone.
It's starting to sound childish, very.
But yet no one will stop. Wierd huh?

It's so wierd how such things can play such a big role in your life,
and then appear so unimportant beside the other things we have to cope with like studies etc.

I wouldn't dare trust anymore I guess.
Maybe not for a while.

I just wish that others uninvolved won't get dragged in unecessarily,
it seems childish and, as I've said, unecessary, to catch such attention.
I'll just end up appearing as the bad guy like how I always do I guess..
(Since we're all staring at a star award winner here.) Ehem.
Don't get it do you?
Some of you do huh (:

You said I was important,
You know you were too,
But seems to me that you wouldn't stop would you?
Or am I just hearing too much from other's conclusions?
I just wish people could lie and say I am right for once..

Insecurity
Roar.

Anyway,
Doctor said starting from today,
I have to bring my maid to the clinic for forthnightly check ups.
(like as if the stay and check up in the hospital wasn't good enough)

Thank you dengue for making life so difficult for me.

Mummy came back yesterday for a night while Dad's away.
I love mummy to death! Miss her :D:D

So I had to photocopy scores blabla, ate dinner, went to Mim's to get some stuffs,
and after years, Mim and I went grocery shopping in NTUC.
Has been I don't know how long since I did that with her can?
Bought super alot of stuffs,
Bro said we were mad when we called him down to do the carrying. Hahah.

Mummy left for Malaysia again today.
And before she did, she ironed all the clothes, except His,
and kept it all neatly in our cabinets.
Bought me Korean food for dinner as well!

I so so love her.
(:

She went back alr. ): So I'd be the Mariah of the house till my maid's well again,
which I don't know when will that be.

Alright,
NO PHOTOS because, you already know the reason. -.-

I'm ecstatic,
because tomorrowwwww my beloved N95 will be back.
Happy happy!

Hopefully I won't lift my whole blanket in the attempt to search for my phone,
and letting it roll onto the floor before blacking out again. -eyeroll

Okay,
PICTURES TOMORROW.

Buhbyee lovely earthlings.

That humble beginning's starting to fade

2008-01-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

School was alrighttttt today.
Talking to Caryn is fun can, lol lol.

Anw,
maths was like, Mdm Chong kept screaming away, as usual.
Scream and scream at Yun Chao, I think he super used to it also. Lol.

Okay, I'm just bored.
Gonna order food to eat.

Byebye. :D

Just tell me where it hurts now tell me,
And I'll do my best to make it better. (:

2008-01-09T19:16:00.000+08:00

I am so addicted to shopping.
I've visited so many online shops already, and bought so many things.
I really don't know how much I've spent, and neither do I wish to know,
so don't have to remind me of how much I just spent on shopping the other day, thank you.

Really lor! I think shopping is super addictive!

And to think my dad just well, ehem, gave, me money the other day,
I thought it'll be more than enough to cover me for long,
but no!

I'm so bad, I think I'll spend it away in no less than 3 days! ):
All thanks to whoever that came up with the ingenius idea of blog shops.
I love and hate whoever you are.

I've been clicking and clicking, browsing and browsing,
till now, I really don't know how many items have I purchased thus far.
Sometimes I even forgot that I reserved them. Memory, -.-

Even when I'm sitting in class,
I'd be thinking about that top in forever 21 that I swore to buy,
and I'd be thinking of when I should get it, before it runs out of stock.
So every week end is like dooms day for my wallet because that's when the cash starts rolling out!

):
How to stop?! Can someone please teach me?!

I still thought of pulling poor darling to window shop with me when we go collect my beloved N95 in suntec.
But that guy will look like as if he kena dragged along
like how guys would always look when girls ask the question,
"Does this look good on me?!",
so no way......

But if I don't buy it,
My top will go out of stock soon!
All those stupid fugly girls out there eyeing on that same top will snatch it away from me. ):
(Not that I mean they're ugly literally, but they steal my top, so they're ugly.)

Some more the other day when I saw it,
there's like only 1 or 2 pieces of small left.
M is way too big.

ARH someone save me from my shopping fantasies!

AND,
I saw heels the other day in wisma too! ):
But no kaching to buy! $$
T_T

AND,
handbags from Novena (I don't know if they're all still there)

AND,
Bikinis from Novena which is damn ex as compared to those in town
but wayyyyy nicer.

AND,
Cine is gonna start their sales bazaar pretty soon in Jan the 18th.
MUST SAVE!

Tell me should I feel guilty or not?!

Although I really don't know why I'm blogging all about my shopping addiction,
I really think people should start to condemn me for being so insensitive about cash,
and then I'll really start to feel the guilt,
and I'll finally, (hopefully, I mean), stop.

But anyway,
Once again, I shall apologise, for the critical need of photos in my blog.
I REALLY need my N95 SOON.
Baby you heard me or not?!
I neeeeddd itt! Faster go collect ah Mr Teo thankyou. :D Mwahhh.

Mummy is coming back tmr and staying for a night.
She's bringing me to the docs..
Too bad there's school on fri!
IF NOT CONFIRM I DRAG HER SHOPPING TOO.

AHHH Pupeng!!! Stop stop stop.

Okay.

To end all of these,
I shall go.
But before you all forget how I look like, in which that should never happen,

I totally don't look like that.
I still love to act chio. And I love it even more when you all hate it when I do. :D
I'm such a bitch. Hahah!
byebye~

2008-01-08T11:47:00.001+08:00

Things have been going on so wierd around me lately.

That day he asked,
"Can I call my gf?"
From the phone call,
I knew something wasn't right already.

So today, I was woken up in the middle of the night,
hearing the screams, the vulgarities, just wasn't what I needed alright.

Kept me awake for hours, and I just couldn't sleep.
What was worse is that my nose just couldn't stop.
In my mind was wtf, do I need this? -.-

Finally I fell asleep at like 5 plus. And till then,
He just couldn't stop screaming can?!
I don't know what the hell is wrong, but I need my sleep badly ok.
So fing pissed.

Woke up at 6.15, and darling called me like 4 times already.
I couldn't even breathe when I woke up. -.-

Miss Tay called,
had to tell her I was having a sore eyes cos I was just broke (or rather someone took my money again) no money to see the doc so I can't give her an mc.
So pathetic can.
And she kept insisting I produce an mc.

How to.
When no one is around at home for today.
Even my maid is sick.

I'm a sick person,
who's gonna visit a sick person later.
Super poor thing luh my maid.. Sigh.

Anw,
on a happier note,
my hp is ready for collection! (:
Happy happy.

They were calling while I was having dinner with bandies + Phua and bell yesterday
"Hello is this Teo Yu Jun?"
I thought was some stupid prank call.
In the end was my phoneeee (: (:

Alright.
Done here. Go eat some panadol or something.

I should really stop falling sick.
And things should really just stop.

I don't really care anymore,
I'm not angry too. (:

Because you're one word to me now,

Insignificant.